Thursday, July 27, 2017

Thoughts

Does anyone else go back and read their own posts multiple times after posting, just to make sure everything makes sense and you agree with what you said?  Maybe it's just me, but I often do that, especially when I have a comment on a post.  I don't usually fix typos (my last post had several) but I'll fix things that I notice are really wrong or don't make sense.

Anyway, I had a comment on my last post and reread what I wrote and then looked at what Blogger decided to put at the bottom for "related posts" and noticed a post titled "Marathon training" which was the same title I used for my last post, so of course I clicked on it.  It was an interesting read, I was thinking about the cow that I talked about in that post just the other day (I now run that road on almost all my long runs that are between 8 and 13 miles). 

It was written in June of 2014, right after my second half marathon and right before I decided I needed to actually pay attention to the plantar faciitis pain and heal that before training for a marathon.  =)  Seeing that post led me to another one, one from 2 years ago while I was actually marathon training. 

This is the post where I talked about crying after my long run.  I had cut off part of my 20 mile run in the middle and ended up with a mile to go when I was thinking I was done.  I read that post where I talked about being so done I cried, and not being able to walk afterwards, then thought about and read about the run that I "broke into a church" to use the bathroom and ended up sitting on the toilet the rest of the day after the run, and then the run that I stopped with only 3 miles left (that was a 13 mile run) and wanted to die, but I finished that run.  All those posts were about bad runs, or at least they ended badly.  And even reading these posts, I still think about the good parts of the runs. 

You know why I missed my long runs last year as I drove past the road I ran on?  Because that road was at the beginning/middle part of my long runs, and that part is always good.  It is through the country and (as long as you look east to ignore the freeway on the other side) has a very pretty view.  The part of the long runs that I had trouble on is on the other side of the freeway, in the "uglier" side of town, through some industrial areas.  I don't go by that area.  It's easy to forget the bad when all I look at is the good. (What a good metaphor for life!)  (It's like giving birth and the reason women have more than one kid, once the bad is over, it's easy to forget.)  ; ) 

Anyway, this post is kinda all over the place.  I've been reminiscing a lot today.  I'm still debating actually doing another marathon, but the more I think about it, the more likely I'm going to actually do it. 

So that brings me to my last topic today (I think).  My hip hurts.  It's been bothering me a lot this week.  I have been assuming it's muscle related, being tight and not stretching properly, so I started stretching and foam rolling.  Yesterday it was really, really painful.  I did notice it hurt most while I was walking in my high heels, so I thought, maybe it's the heels.  Today I did not wear heels, and it does feel better, but it is still bothering me.  I haven't run since I was on the treadmill on Tuesday.  I have been thinking of running today to see how my hip is, but my sister tells me I need to give it a week.  The last time she told me that, she was completely right, but I just keep thinking about marathon training and that I'm supposed to run 14 miles on Sunday.

Sometimes when rereading old posts I hit on a significant event in my life.  I just read about my last days at my last job in 2014, and it made me sad.  I don't miss it as much as I used to, but I do still miss the coworker I worked closest with, who I haven't seen in 3 years.  I was hopeful that we would continue to be good friends, but I got a job south of where we worked, and she lives and got a job north of where we worked, and she doesn't answer my texts hardly at all, so we just don't talk anymore.  It's sad because we were pretty close for 4 years. 

Monday, July 24, 2017

Marathon training

In January I decided that I wasn't going to talk about my weight anymore.  I am not super overweight, and really, I don't think anyone cares to hear about how much I obsess about it.  I have been very good at not talking about it on here, and I think I've even started to obsess less about it.  I note my weight and hate it, and move on.  I wish I could go back to the size 6 jeans that are in my closet, but right now I should be happy with the size 8 jeans I am wearing.

So that being said, I've been thinking about why I decided to train for another marathon.  There are two reasons.  The first one is simple and the one I tell everyone, I missed my long runs last summer.  I romanticized them in my head all last summer.  The road I ran on while training in 2015 runs right along the freeway, and so going to and from work, especially to work because it's so nice in the morning, I would think about how much I missed those runs.  I hated that I sprained my ankle last year and I hated that I wasn't running any more than 3 miles.  I guess as part of reason one is also that I do better with consistency when I have a goal race, and a marathon in Oct is perfect for summer running.

The second reason I decided to train for another marathon is more of a secret desire.  In 2015 when I was training I felt and looked my best.  I got to the closest I have been in close to 25 years to my (secret) goal weight of around 135, and got to the weight I tell everyone is my goal (140).  I guess I've been telling myself that if I train for another marathon, I will start losing weight again, and maybe I can get back down to 145, which is where I was happy, even though I still wanted to lose weight. 
Different lighting, different room (home vs. work) but I still think that in September of 2015 my face and collar looked smaller than today.  And I wish I could get back to that look from 2015. . .

When I started marathon training, or maybe when I started talking about it, Chris has started reminding me of all the bad runs I had, he even mentioned the run (or runs) I cried after.  I didn't have the best long runs.  In fact, I hated most of them.  And it's true that I dread my long runs, every week.  I dreaded having to run 13 miles yesterday, and already I'm dreading the 14 miles scheduled for this next Sunday.  So I'm not sure if I really want to run another marathon.  What's the point of running more than one?  I ran the first to say that I did it, why do I want to run the second other than missing runs that I actually hated, and wanting to lose weight I'm not sure I'll be able to?

40 is tough.  5 years ago when I started running I wished I had attempted to lose weight in my 20's, I bet it would have been easier and it would have fallen off faster.  Now I'm wishing it was 5 years ago again.  My weight lose journey has been slow, and frustrating.  And again, I'm only talking about the 30 lbs I wanted and have lost, not some astronomical number that blows people away.  But at least I felt like I was going somewhere 5 years ago, not this frustratingly stubborn 10lbs that won't get off my body.

Anyway, I will stop whining about it.

This year the marathon training plan I'm using is Hal Higdon's intermediate 2 plan, vs the one in 2015 that was Hal Higdon's beginner 1 or 2 (can't remember) plan.  It started me at 10 miles for my long run and it incorporates race pace runs.  I have never done a race pace run before, so I was pretty skeptical about it when I attempted it with my first 5 miles.  If I want to run under a 4 hour marathon, I have to run 9:09 min/miles, that seems impossible for 26.2 miles.  So that means that my race pace run needs to be at an average of 9:09 min/miles.

The training plan says that the run before the long run should be race pace, and the long run should be 30-90 seconds per mile slower.  I have actually been surprised with this.  I decided anything under 9:10 would be good for me for race pace, and my long runs no more than 60 seconds slower.  I've done 3 race pace runs, one 5 mile, and two 6 mile ones.  All of them have been under 9 min/miles.  5 miles was 8.39 and both 6 mile runs were 8.49.

I've been even more surprised by my long run times.  My first long run time was 10:04 min/mile for 10 miles, but all of them since have been under 10 min/miles.  In fact, yesterday's 13 miles was an average of 9.35 min/mile.  Looking at that on my calendar makes me happy. 
If you can see that, the red is the actual runs and the pencil is the training plan.  Maybe this is why I want to run another marathon, to beat my time from my first.  Maybe it's for the sense of accomplishment . . .
Seriously, after my run yesterday, my feet hurt so bad.  And my legs hurt.  And I have a hip problem that I don't know what to do about.  I've been stretching (not as consistently as I should) and I started foam rolling.  I guess I will see how that works for the next week and reevaluate if it doesn't start getting better. 

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Month in a nutshell

Well, it's been a minute since my last post.  Not since June 22, that's almost a month of no posts.  I guess I haven't had a lot to say recently.  I guess I will try to hit the high points with this post.

  • Summer is here.  Well, western Washington summer is here, which means weather in the 70's, which I will take over the 8 months of rain we had.  (Seriously, 8 months solid.)  Do you know how you know you live in western WA?  When people start complaining of 31 days with no rain.  I would prefer to go 8 months of no rain and 31 days (maybe) of rain.
  • I changed my hair color.  I was going for a black that looks purple in the sun, but it didn't really work out.  It's more black.  I'm kinda disappointed in it.  =(
    From this . . .
    to this.
     
  • Marathon training has started.  I sorta started a week early, but then just did week 1 two times.  When I wrote down my marathon training miles this time around, I told myself that I was going to follow it to the letter, no skipped runs, no shortened runs, exactly the amount of miles I am supposed to do (although different days than what the schedules says is okay, just as long at the weekly mileage is correct), but now that it's here, I don't know that will be how it is. However, I have already cheated.  I've skipped two 3 mile runs.  But I am trying very hard to do the longish mid-week run.  Right now I'm at 6 miles mid-week, and I'm dreading it, but when it gets up to 8-9-10 . . . I may have to rearrange miles.  I'm already thinking I may make all my mid-week runs longer so that I'm not running so far after work one day (instead I'm running far after work three days).  We'll see how it works out.
    Not my longest run lately, but my most recent long run which
    is a scale down week.
  • I completely skipped going to workout at the gym for two straight months.  Well, I guess I went in and did 20 min on the elliptical 3 times in May.  Not even once in June.  I even skipped checking in at all for the first week of July.  However, I ran on a treadmill 2x last week and once this week.  Last week I ran 6 miles on the treadmill in the gym.  That's the most I've run on a treadmill ever, and surprisingly it didn't feel that hard.  I do have a hard time listening to my audiobook, which is my preferred choice while running, when in the gym but I found I don't concentrate on the book enough in the gym so I have to rewind a lot.  I don't find that there are more distracting things in the gym, but I guess my brain doesn't ever get in the "groove" of just running and zoning out.
  • My garden is great.  I have had numerous salads from it this year.  I haven't seen cucumber yet, which I'm disappointed in, but I have had radishes, one carrot, two snap pea pods, and lots of butter lettuce.  My broccoli and cauliflower are huge, onions are going rampantly, potatoes.  Pumpkins are flowering . . . oh, and I keep hoping my jalapeno plant will take off, but no luck so far.  Oh and I discovered a love of basil.  I LOVE basil.  I even put it on my grilled cheese this last weekend and it was delicious (made with mozzarella). 

  • We had a great 4th of July day.  We went fishing at a local no motors allowed lake, and Damian got to take out his kayak for the first time.  I went out in it twice and fell in love with it.  So much so that I decided to buy a paddleboard with Damian. We just got it this last weekend and are going back to the lake with both this coming Saturday.  I'm really looking forward to it. 


  • Maddox caught his first fish while I was kayaking (so of course, no picture) but he put it back because it was "too pokey."  =)  Apparently it had some spikes on it's back and it poked Maddox and he didn't like it, so he put it back and had to fish on the other side of the dock because "that side has pokey fish."   
  • The fireworks show on the 4th was okay, we went to Bellingham, which is about 30-45 min north, but what ruined it was sitting in one single spot for an entire hour before getting out of the parking lot.  It was horrible.  I went to bed at 1am and was up at 430am.  It was awful. 
    We were so tired after the whole day on the lake.
  • I'm not losing weight and I'm very frustrated by it.  I seem to be gaining again.  That's all I'm going to say about that.
Well, that seems to be my month in a nutshell.  I'll try to be better at posting.  =)