Tuesday, July 26, 2016

It's been awhile

Wow!  My last post was almost 3 weeks ago.  I've said this before, but when I don't run I feel like my brain doesn't work as much.  I don't have as much to say because I'm not running.

And I'm still not running.  We're at week 10, exactly today.  I have a friend on Facebook that is a nurse, he lives in Virginia, but he's been very interested in my running since I started and he asks me regularly how things are going.  About a week ago I chatted with him, and sent a picture of my ankle from 2 days after I sprained it.  He told me it looks and sounds like a Grade 2 sprain and that can take 14 weeks to heal. =/  He told me to take some supplements that may help and gave me some advice.  Really he gave me more information and advice than the dr did at week 5. 

I got a brace and have been wearing it.  Usually when it bothers me or when I'm walking a lot. 

I started thinking about joining a gym again.  When I was struggling with plantar faciitis, I joined the YMCA, which, in Mt. Vernon, is really kind of a crappy facility, but was cheap and they did monthly memberships with no commitments.  But the exercises I would do still involve my ankle, swimming and cycle.  So I haven't done that yet.  Plus, my sister told me I should wait 2 weeks, quit running sporadically (I was averaging a run a week) and just let it heal and see what happens.  So I'm in my 3rd week of that.

This weekend I am running a race, I have to maintain my goal of a race a month, but it will be a slow race since I haven't run at all since July 4th. 

Another change I have done is I've started being completely honest with my food.  And I've gone over my calories everyday. 

I'm still undecided about a gym.  My work has a thing through insurance that if I joined a gym I would get reimbursed some for going, as long as I go 12 times a month.  That would be nice.  I think the Y is $55? so if I was reimbursed for $20 of that, I'd only be paying $35.  I don't know.  I don't know if I should be doing anything on my ankle at all. . . But I'm dying to exercise.  I miss it.  I especially miss not feeling bloated all the time. 

I keep telling myself this is temporary and if I just let it heal I'll be able to run, but it's very, very frustrating. 

At this point, running a marathon , at least for the October marathon, is out.  =(  I have 13 Saturdays before the marathon, and I don't think that's enough time.  I'm not running at all, and haven't done any long runs for 10 weeks, so my endurance is gone, and more importantly, my ankle isn't healed yet.  Maybe I'll look into marathons in December.  I know there's a local one on December 31st, that might be a fun way to celebrate the end of 2016. 

Thursday, July 7, 2016

tracking issues

I have been "tracking" my food for 270 days, according to myfitnesspal.com. The thing with this is that I log in to track my breakfast, that's usually the easiest, eggs, creamer, milk, and coffee, and don't always do my lunch and dinner. But it's just to keep my streak going.  I'd like to get to one year of tracking.  But I'm not really tracking what I eat.  I log in, to log in, I put in my breakfast, sometimes in the late evening, just so that I don't lose my streak.  I very rarely track any snacks that I eat, or afternoon coffee I may drink.  IF I put in dinner, I usually put in the glass, or two, of wine that I drank, but then if I happen to have more before bed (weekends usually) I rarely track that. 

Why do I bring this up?  Because since I haven't been running, I've gained some weight.  I currently sit at or just below 150.  The end of the summer I was sitting really, really close to 140, which is really where I'd like to be.  I felt fabulous there.  I do not feel fabulous at 150.  I can look at 270 days of tracking and think, why am I not at a fabulous weight?  I'm not eating too much.  But the truth is, I probably am. 
Sunday's diary, I logged breakfast
but nothing else.
For example, for breakfast on Tuesday I ate 2 hard boiled eggs (tracked), 2 cups of coffee with creamer and milk (that I measure everyday to equal 2 servings of creamer per cup of coffee, and about half a cup total of milk, which is tracked).  For lunch I ate 1 left over pork chop (tracked), 1 hard boiled egg (tracked), and one small banana (tracked).  That sounds like a pretty good breakfast and lunch, right?  On paper it looks good.  What I didn't track was the biscotti my coworker gave me when I got to work or the banana bread my supervisor made and left in the breakroom.  If I put those two things in, my calories go from 549 left for the day, to 253.  253 calories is not enough for dinner, even if I don't drink any wine. 

I am not running, or moving, enough to keep my weight down where I'd like it if I continue to eat the way I have been.  I track meals, but not much else.  And the in-between food is the food that is not that good for me. 

Where am I going with this?  Well, when I started the post, I was thinking I'd challenge myself to tracking Every. Single. Food. that enters my mouth. But honestly, I don't know that I'm that committed. I also don't know if I'm that committed to quit eating so much.  I think what I need to do is eat better, well, and less, but mostly better.  Fewer snacks at work (that's the killer), less coffee breaks in the afternoon (that's gonna be impossible), I've already cut back on wine in the evening so that's good.

I decided to go put in every single thing I ate on Tuesday and Wednesday.  I was thinking about this post on Tuesday, so I decided to eat the way I normally do, then yesterday I was going to try to be good, but still not obsess about hitting the calories.  Want to know the result? It's not pretty . . .
I ended up eating more yesterday, on my "good" day, than Tuesday . . .

Seriously, I just want to run.

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

I just want to run.

Happy late 4th of July.  I hope all 2 of my readers had a good and safe 4th (I don't think I currently have any readers outside of the US, but maybe. . .)

Anyway, we had a pretty uneventful weekend.  Chris worked every day except Sunday, so I stayed home all weekend.  Saturday night we had a fire outside with a friend, and I drank way too much wine. 

Sunday I had scheduled a distillery tour for Chris's birthday, which was the weekend before.  I felt awful when I woke up.  Ever notice how wine hangovers are worse than any other?  I really didn't feel like going on the tour, but we've never done it before and thought it would be interesting, plus, it was Chris's birthday present, so I kinda had to go.  After a bunch of water and some Tylenol, I felt able to function and had a good time.  I don't think it was much of a tour.  It is a very small distillery, Bad Dog Distillery, that's only been around for about a year and a half.  The guy showed us where he brews, just in a big warehouse-type room, and Chris asked him a lot of questions about home brewing (because he's really interested and wants to try it). They brew primarily whiskey, which I'm not much of a fan of, but they also make some vodka, and a really, really good licorice whiskey. 

For the 4th, I was home most of the day.  Like I said, Chris worked.  I had been thinking, obsessing really, about going for a run all weekend.  My ankle has a little ache to it, but it really isn't bad.  I was thinking that if it had felt like this when I fell, I probably wouldn't have stopped running at all, so yesterday I decided to go for a run.  When I had been to the Urgent Care the week before, the dr said that if I do run, to wrap my ankle, so I did.  However, I think I wrapped too tight, or something.  While I was running, not even a  mile from my house, my foot was really bothering me, not my ankle, but my foot.  I stopped and sat on the side of the road and rewrapped my ankle, making in looser around my foot.  It felt much better after that, so I continued.  I ended up running just over 3 miles.  I iced it when I got home and didn't really notice it the rest of the night.

Today my ankle isn't bothering me at all.  I iced it this morning, but I don't know if I needed to.  I suppose it's a good idea since it is still a little swollen. 

After I ran yesterday we got ready and went to our friend and neighbor's inlaw's house.  We've been going there for many years, but the mother of our friend's wife just died about a month ago, so we had actually not planned on going there this year.  But they said they were doing it, and of course we were invited. 

It was a fun evening, but way too late on a school night.  ; )  Maddox fell asleep on my lap about 10:15, which I felt bad about because he was so excited for the fireworks all week.  I guess since they started lighting the less colorful ones at 6 or 7, he got his fair share of fireworks.  =) 

Because my ankle feels good, and I'm "supposed" to be training for a marathon, I have been debating about running tonight as well.  I worry about not letting it heal properly, or reinjuring it but I just want to run.  Seriously.