Friday, March 28, 2014


He stole my blanket. =)
I have blisters.  The blisters are so bad on my right big toe that there are at least 5, on top, next to, and on top of two, my entire big toe.  It hurt.  It hurt badly.  I am not sure what is causing them.  I've never had this problem before.  I have been thinking it's because I need new shoes.  I have never gotten blisters when I need new shoes before, but I've also never worn out a pair of shoes that encourages your foot to do a mid foot strike rather than a heel strike.  So there are stages of pain that come with needing a new pair of shoes.  I got shin splints at first, then a weird calf pain, and now blisters on my toes. 

Yesterday I went to buy new shoes and of course they didn't have the ones I wanted in my size.  I had to order them.  =(  So yesterday I wanted to go for a run, I got home and decided to wear some old shoes.  Yes, they are old, yes, the mileage on them is too much.  However, the worse those shoes gave me was shin splints, and I will live with shin splints.  (Blisters suck much more.)

However, I got home and took my shoes and socks off after my 6 mile run and found this:

Yeah, that's bad.  That hurt. There are at least 5 different blisters on that one toe.  5  So now I don't know if it's the shoes, maybe socks?, or maybe the way I am running.  However, I have been running this way for a couple months now, so I don't understand how that could be it. I wonder if it is the way I'm running combined with needing new shoes.  It was feeling and looking better this morning, so that's a good thing, but it felt fine yesterday before my run and look what it turned into.  =(

I don't know what that means for my mileage for March.  I have 4 days left in March and need 17 miles.  I wasn't worried about that until I saw my toe.  I was planning 4 miles today, possibly 5 tomorrow (although I'm going to hang out with my sister and was thinking of not running) but 8 on Sunday and then whatever is left over on Monday.  But now . . . I feel like a couple days off would be good and 8 miles is not good. 

I don't know what I should do . . .

My official weigh in on Wednesday was 147.2.  I don't understand how the exact same number pops up on my "official" weigh in days.  I see all sorts of numbers throughout the week, and then Wednesday comes and it's the exact same.  I find it kind of funny.  =) 

Wednesday was kind of a rough day for me at work.  I spent the entire day with one client at the hospital.  We took a break at lunchtime and I asked her where she wanted to eat so we went to McDonald's.  I don't like McD's, I think it's crap food, but I was starving, so I got a hamburger (quarter pounder) with fries.  I ended up giving most of my fries to my client, but I did eat some.  Then that evening Chris made breakfast burritos.  I love breakfast burritos, I ate one.  With several glasses of wine.  I went to bed feeling bloated and not really good, but I didn't really care.  I expected to be up on Thursday morning.  I actually wanted to see how high I was Wednesday night, so I stepped on the scale before going to bed, which I never do.  When I feel bloated and gross I always prep myself to see a high number.  I told myself "don't worry Cathy 150 is temporary, you just ate, you drank wine, you're over full, it'll be down in the morning."  And it wasn't 150, it was 149.8.  Still not a number I like, but I always feel that's a victory when it's no as high as I prep myself for. 

I was surprised yesterday morning when I stepped on the scale it said 147.4.  Only up 0.2 lbs.  I don't know how that is possible.  So I thought, well, maybe the crap food will show today.  Nope, down to 146.0 this morning.  I don't know.  Strange.  I did eat fairly well yesterday, not great, but small portions (Chris made chicken fettuccine with garlic bread) but I would still expect to be up.

Today I'm getting my car worked on and then I was hoping to do 3.5-4 miles on the treadmill as speed work.  I guess we'll see how I feel about my toe later.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014


I don't normally (read ever) do this, but I found this article extremely interesting.  I'm not saying I'll never eat pizza again (especially Papa Murphy's) but I'll definitely think on this one for awhile.


If You’ve Ever Eaten Pizza Before, This Will Blow Your Mind (Maybe Literally)
I love pizza! It’s one of my top favorite foods next to kale and cake. And I know I’m not the only one that loves it, either. Recently, the USDA conducted a study which revealed the enormous amount of pizza we consume in the United States. American consumption of cheese increased by nearly 30% in 10 years because the dairy industry is spending big bucks to promote pizza and partner with big chains like Dominos. Congress even voted to declare pizza a vegetable in the school lunch program. The government wants us to eat pizza – a lot of it. But there’s a lot going on behind closed doors that nobody wants us to know or talk about, and it all starts with the ingredients.
When I started researching pizza ingredients, one thing became abundantly clear. Pizza restaurants did not like the questions I was asking.
Pizza Vani Food Babe

The only way to find out what may be lurking in your pizza is to review its complete ingredient list, which is often concealed from the public. I began calling the top pizza chains and easily found a couple ingredient lists online. But, when I called most pizza restaurants and began asking questions, they blatantly refused to share ingredient lists and their customer service reps were oblivious to what their ingredients were – they had no clue.
Little Caesars, California Pizza Kitchen (CPK) and Mellow Mushroom have all refused to answer my questions about their ingredients. I was told by Mellow Mushroom’s corporate offices that they will only comply with minimal government regulations, which require them to publish an allergen list.
After sending me their dough ingredients, CPK suddenly claimed that due to “proprietary restrictions” they can’t disclose their full ingredient lists. They went on to tell me that they “don’t have an easy way to perform a search by individual ingredient” and would need to call each vendor first. While traveling, I stopped into a CPK in an airport to ask questions face to face. Both the manager and store clerk had zero access to ingredients. I even asked to look at the packages of their dough and other ingredients that got shipped to the store in and they said they did not have them.
I called many local pizza restaurants and was informed that it’s their policy to NOT disclose ingredients to their customers. Little Caesars literally told me that if I was concerned about what was in it, I “just shouldn’t eat there…” Ha! Don’t worry, I won’t!
Papa John’s also has repeatedly refused to release their ingredient list, which really caused a stir last year with my friend Melanie Warner, author of the processed food exposing book “Pandora’s Lunchbox“. How can Papa John’s claim to have “Better Ingredients… Better Pizza” without telling us what’s really in it? While they say their lack of transparency is due to the proprietary nature of their recipes, they could be hiding some seriously harmful ingredients.  After repeated calls to corporate offices and some helpful photos sent to me by Melanie Warner, I was finally able to uncover some details about what is really in their pizzas.
Why are the ingredients so hard to find?  Why are they refusing to share their ingredients? What is it that these pizza restaurants don’t want us to know?
Well, I’ll tell you what they’re hiding: Lots and lots of hidden MSG!
Restaurants don’t want to get a bad rap by putting monosodium glutamate (MSG) on their ingredient or allergen statements, so they have found another way to secretly add this potent flavor enhancer to your food, without the average customer realizing it. Instead of letting you know that they are putting MSG in your food, they are using an FDA loophole to sneak processed free glutamic acid into your food, which has the same effect as MSG – all without warning you. They simply use other forms of free glutamic acid (such as Hydrolyzed Soy Protein), which is the main component of MSG. This allows them to have “clean labels” and deceive us into believing their product contains no MSG – when it actually does!
While it’s true that tomatoes and cheese are naturally high in glutamates, they do not have the same effect on the brain as added manufactured free glutamic acid additives. When I talked to Papa John’s, they admitted that these additives are used as a replacement for MSG by the food industry.
It will blow your mind – literally
MSG tricks your brain into believing that what you are eating tastes so great that you want more of it. Your taste buds sense that there is more protein in the food than there really is – which is great for food manufacturers that want to save money by using less or lower quality meat. These ingredients also promote an addiction to pizza so that you keep coming back to order more. Repeat business keeps their pockets lined with lots of cash. Ever wonder why you can’t stop at one slice? This is why.
MSG and hidden MSG additives are known to commonly cause headaches, obesity and depression – and this is just the tip of the iceberg. As an excitotoxin, its effect on the brain is so toxic that it has been linked to learning disabilities, Alzheimer’s disease, Parkinson’s disease, and Lou Gehrig’s disease. Board certified neurosurgeon Russell Blaylock, M.D. warns that, “Excitotoxins have been found to dramatically promote cancer growth… It also causes a cancer cell to become more mobile, and that enhances metastasis, or spread… When you increase the glutamate level, cancer just grows like wildfire”.
This is serious stuff. But the industry will tell you it’s harmless and that you are crazy for being concerned.
Don’t make the mistake of thinking that it is okay to eat this stuff occasionally, because these ingredients can stick around in your body for a long time, leach nutrients from your system, and can make you really sick.  As put by my pal Kristen Michaelis at, “Not only is MSG not a traditional food, not only are many people immediately sensitive to it, but it can also interrupt the hormonal and biological development of children!  Lest you think this is all fanciful, it’s important to remember that a number of studies have found that the effects of MSG can occur cumulatively over time with subsequent exposure. 
Hidden MSG in Pizza

Toxic hidden MSG ingredients buried in popular pizza menu items:
  • Autolyzed Yeast Extract (Hidden MSG)
  • Textured or Hydrolyzed Proteins (Hidden MSG and GMO)
  • Hydrolyzed Corn (Hidden MSG and GMO)
  • Modified Starches (Hidden MSG or Possible GMO)
  • Natural Flavors (Possible Hidden MSG)
  • Disodium Inosinate or Disodium Guanylate (MSG enhancers)
The additives Disodium Guanylate and Disodium Inosinate are not added to a product that doesn’t contain MSG because they are considered expensive additives that are ineffective without MSG ingredients.  The presence of Disodium Guanylate or Disodium Inosinate in a product is a strong indication that a product contains hidden MSG.
I’m talking about more than MSG here
The ingredient lists that I could get my hands on are riddled with artificial colors, artificial and natural flavors, partially hydrogenated oils, cellulose (wood pulp) to keep the already shredded cheese from clumping, and GMO soybean oil.
Partially Hydrogenated Oils (Trans-fat) – There is absolutely no reason for anyone to still be using this. These oils are so bad that even our FDA has woken up and warns that it’s not safe to eat this in any food.  Partially hydrogenated oils block arteries and the CDC estimates that they could cause up to 20,000 heart attacks every year!  I found these dangerous oils in Pizza Hut’s hand-tossed crust, Round Table’s Creamy Garlic sauce, Papa John’s dipping sauces and Dominos Philly Steak pizza. Partially hydrogenated oils are found in 21 menu items at Cici’s Pizza – it’s even added to their cheese!
Soybean Oil (likely GMO) - You’d hope to see just olive oil in there, but soybean oil is the oil of choice for most pizza restaurants.  It’s in the dough and pizza sauces, so it basically makes its way into every pizza. This genetically engineered inflammation causing oil is being used at these restaurants:
  • Papa John’s
  • Domino’s
  • Pizza Hut
  • Uno Pizzeria 
  • Papa Murphy’s
  • Little Caesars
  • Cici’s
  • Mellow Mushroom – “Soybean oil is a major ingredient in our pizzas
  • California Pizza Kitchen – “our Ciabatta Bread and our Wheat Dough do contain Soybean Oil”
  • Round Table Pizza – Creamy Garlic sauce
BHT/BHA (Butylated Hydroxytoluene.Butylated Hydroxyanisole) - BHT is used in embalming fluid and to fuel jets.  BHA is toxic to your organs and linked to cancer. These were found in the pepperoni on every ingredient list I looked at from Uno’s to Dominos.
Sodium Nitrite - Whenever this is added to a meat, there is a really good chance that it contains cancer-causing Nitrosamines. Nitrites are often found in the pepperoni, ham, bacon and sausage toppings.
Enriched Flour - This is a dead food that has had some vitamins and minerals artificially replaced. It’s absorbed by your body as a starch, rather than a whole grain. This flour is used in pizza dough, except the gluten-free versions.
Artificial Colors - These are petroleum-based colorings linked to asthma, allergies and hyperactivity. I found them in the banana pepper toppings, the cheese at Cici’s, and specifically in the garlic oil used by Domino’s.
Caramel Coloring – This is often made by heating ammonia and sulfites under high pressure which creates carcinogenic compounds. You’ll find this very controversial coloring in the bacon at Pizza Hut, the Italian sausage at Round Table, the beef at Little Caesars, the zesty pizza sauce at Cici’s and in the BBQ Chicken pizza at Uno’s.
BPA (Bisphenol A)You won’t find this on any ingredient label, but BPA leaches from the cans that hold pizza sauce in some restaurants. Many fast food pizza chains use canned tomato sauce that could have BPA. This substance exposure increases your risk for cardiovascular disease, breast cancer, prostate cancer, diabetes and a slew of other medical problems. 
How these pizza restaurants stack up
Papa John’s – They add a lot to their “Better Ingredients”.  For instance, their “100% Beef” topping is a lot more than just beef! It contains corn syrup, maltodextrin, natural flavor, natural smoke grill flavor, beef flavor and seasonings. Also, so much for believing that there is 100% real cheese topping their pizzas, as they add modified food starch (hidden MSG), preservatives and powdered wood pulp (cellulose) to their cheese blend. They also add natural flavors to their thin crust, pepperoni, and chicken topping, as well as hidden MSG (autolyzed yeast extract) to their garlic ranch and spinach alfredo pizza sauces. Those little dipping sauces that come with your pizza are loaded with partially hydrogenated oil, GMOs and (you guessed it) more hidden MSG.
Papa Johns Ingredients

Domino’s – One of the few pizza restaurants that openly publishes their ingredients online – and their ingredient list has hidden MSG written all over it. It’s almost impossible to avoid at Dominos, as it’s in their cheese, marinara sauce, white sauces, BBQ sauce and a slew of toppings (chicken, beef, Italian sausage and Philly steak). They also add “flavors” to their pan crust, cheese, pepperoni and shake-on seasoning. The garlic oil used on nearly every pizza is NOT what you’d expect (garlic & oil).  It’s actually a toxic combo of over 20 ingredients including artificial colors, artificial flavors and TBHQ.
Pizza Hut – You get a lot more than “100% Real Beef” in this topping loaded natural and artificial flavors. Their sausage and bacon toppings have hidden MSG (autolyzed yeast or hydrolyzed proteins), and you are eating modified starches in their cheese, chicken and cream sauce (starches usually derived from GMO corn).  The garlic sauce and seasoning used on every hand-tossed pizza is loaded with natural flavors, artificial flavors and partially-hydrogenated GMO oils.  Pizza Hut recently reformulated their hand-tossed crust by replacing the high fructose corn syrup with sucralose (Splenda) – an artificial sweetener that has been shown to cause DNA damage to the gastrointestinal tract, reduces beneficial gut bacteria, and is linked to inflammatory bowel disease. Recent research indicates that sucralose is linked to leukemia.
Round Table – “The Last Honest Pizza” honestly adds straight “Glutamic Acid” to their creamy garlic sauce. They add hidden MSG ingredients to their pizza sauces, chicken and sausage toppings. Their cheese is far from “100% real” with “Natural Smoke Flavoring” and cellulose.
Little Caesars – Although their corporate office told me that their ingredients are top secret, the first gal I talked with admitted that there is yeast extract in their beef topping. I also called a local store and found that their super-secret ingredients were listed right there on the package for anyone in the kitchen to read. According to my local restaurant, their sauce contains natural flavors and the cheese contains wood pulp (cellulose). They also rattled off the beef topping ingredients to confirm it contains yeast extract, beef flavorings and caramel coloring.
Mellow Mushroom – One of the most tight-lipped restaurants I talked to would only admit to the use of soybean oil, which is likely GMO – “Soybean oil is a major ingredient in our pizzas” they wrote to me in an email. Furthermore, when I asked about hidden MSG ingredients, they told me that they weren’t required to tell me since they are not one of the 7 major allergens designated by the FDA and don’t list them on their allergen list. So I decided to go use their allergen tool to see what they do list and found something shocking. The tool gives misleading, inaccurate and potentially dangerous information if you have a soy allergy. For example, I confirmed their crust uses soy, but when you use the tool, it says there are plenty of pizzas without soy. The information doesn’t add up and regardless of whether if you have an allergy, I would not trust Mellow Mushroom until they release the full ingredient lists for their menu.
Uno Pizzeria – They are not much better than the rest with hidden MSG in their BBQ Chicken pizza, Harvest Vegetable pizza, sausage topping and gluten-free crust. I was a bit surprised to see that they also add caramel color, artificial flavors, and a large amount of natural flavors to their BBQ Chicken pizza – it’s totally unnecessary.
California Pizza Kitchen (CPK) – As they were being very difficult in sharing ingredients, I was only able to confirm that the Thai sauce, tomato pizza sauce, pepperoni, salami, bacon, romano cheese, and chipotle sauce do not contain any of the hidden MSG ingredients that I listed. Because they refuse to share an ingredient list, I have no way of knowing whether they contain other additives or hidden MSG that I didn’t ask about – so don’t be convinced that these menu items are clean! I also inquired about hidden MSG ingredients in their other cheeses, BBQ sauce, chicken, sausage and ham toppings – and they have not responded at all regarding those items. Again, I will take their lack of a response as an indication that they do contain hidden MSG until they inform us otherwise.
Papa Murphy’s – It’s all about the sauces at Papa Murphy’s, where there’s yeast extract in their basil pesto sauce and modified food starch in their BBQ sauce, buffalo sauce, creamy garlic sauce and sweet chili sauce. They also add “flavors” to nearly every meat topping available and to their cheese.
Cici’s – They don’t really hide it by adding straight MSG to 10 menu items including their “Zesty” pizza sauce. Cici’s further adds hidden MSG to their buffalo sauce, ranch dressing, bacon cheddar sauce, sausage topping and beef topping. Quite frankly, I can’t believe how bad their “cheese” is – modified food starch, partially hydrogenated soybean oil, (added) casein, aluminum, natural flavors and artificial color! I was also astounded to find high fructose corn syrup in their BBQ sauce and dessert pizzas, as well as carrageenan and propylene glycol in several of their sauces, including the Alfredo.

Are you wondering about your favorite pizza place?
The good news is that you can do the exact same thing I did at your favorite pizza place, and please share the outcome with me!
To get the best results, plan to visit your pizza place during a slow time and not during their dinner rush.  This way their employees won’t be rushed and will have time to answer your questions.  Right off the bat, ask them if they have an ingredient list to share with you.  Most likely they won’t, but it’s worth a try.  If their ingredients are not readily available, here’s my game plan for navigating the menu and asking the right questions:
  • Typically the safest bet is to stick with a veggie pizza without cheese. This is dependent on what they have lurking in their sauce and crust, so it’s really important to find out what is in those items!  Ask them to read you the complete ingredients in the sauce and dough.
  • Hidden MSG is most often found in meat toppings, seasoning mixes and creamy sauces – so if you plan to order those things I would ask specifically about hidden MSG ingredients.  Ask them if monosodium glutamate, autolyzed yeast, hydrolyzed proteins, modified starches, or natural flavors are in any of those menu items. Which ones?
  • GMO soybean oil is usually found in the crust and the sauces.  Ask them if they use soybean oil – and in what menu items.  Is soybean oil used in their pans?  Can they make you a pizza without it?
  • Ask them directly if any of their ingredients are GMO. You may be surprised as they may have no clue what you are talking about.  Use this as an opportunity to briefly share with them what a GMO is and why you don’t eat GMOs. Let them know that most soy is GMO so if they use soy in any products, it is probably GMO. Their allergen statement should also be able to tell you if soy is used in any product.
  • Remember that “garlic oils” and “shake-on seasonings” may contain a bunch of questionable ingredients and MSG. Ask them if there are any specialty oils, butter sauces, or seasoning mixes used on their pizzas. If they can’t tell you the ingredients in those, ask them not to use it on yours.
  • Do they use high fructose corn syrup or other sweeteners in their sauces or dough? These sweeteners are probably derived from GMO sources – including “sugar”.
  • Most vegetables will not be GMO, unless they have corn, tofu, zucchini or yellow squash toppings. I would avoid those.
  • What about cellulose in their cheese? Are flavorings and preservatives added to the cheese as well?
Beware that often times the restaurant employees truly do not know the answers to your questions, and will give you incorrect answers.  For instance, they may tell you that their cheese is “100% real cheese”, without realizing that the pre-shredded bag of cheese in the back contains an ingredient list.  On that ingredient list, they will likely find cellulose, some preservatives, and possibly some flavors and colors.  It’s good to remember that it’s not all that it seems on the surface, and in order to find out what is really in their food they will need to read the ingredient list on the box, bag or can that the menu item comes in. The bottom line – If they won’t tell you what is in their food, don’t eat there.
They don’t expect the average customer to demand answers about their food!
Only four of the restaurants I investigated publish their current ingredient lists online – Dominos, Uno’s, Papa Murphy’s, Cici’s. (Pizza Hut publishes them online, but they admitted to me they aren’t current in an email). As in my Chipotle investigation, I had to be extremely persistent over several months to get the limited information that I did from the other restaurants. This took multiple phone calls, voicemails, emails, and website contact forms – which often went unanswered. I had to ask specific questions about obscure ingredients. They are counting on the average customer to not do this!
On Papa John’s website, they say that their cheese is “crafted from 100% mozzarella and high-quality milk by one of America’s finest cheese producers” – But the ingredients tell the real story. Now we know their cheese also contains wood pulp and modified food starch… and that IT’S NOT 100% CHEESE. When Papa John’s claims in all of their advertising that they have “Better Ingredients”, yet they won’t openly tell us what they are, it’s a safe bet they’re hiding something.
I wonder if any of these restaurants will have the courage to discuss this issue. Will they do the right thing now that we are calling them out, like Chipotle did when they finally released their full ingredient list online for everyone to see? These companies do not deserve our business, until they publish their ingredients online and make them easily accessible to the average customer.
What to eat instead:
Okay, this is the good part! I’m thrilled to say that I’ve found some pizza places that are doing it right!
Pizza Fusion – I called up a Pizza Fusion restaurant and they freely answered every question I had about their ingredients – a big WIN in my book!  Their sauce is super simple: organic tomatoes, olive oil, water – and no nasty additives or hidden MSG. They only use olive oil in the restaurant, so you won’t find any GMO soybean or canola oil here. They confirmed with me that their gluten-free crust no longer contains canola oil and that they are diligent about preventing cross-contamination with gluten. I was really happy to find out that all of their meat toppings are antibiotic-free! Their chickens are also fed a non-GMO diet. Many of their veggie toppings are organic and local, and all are non-GMO. This varies and depends on what is seasonally available, so simply ask them which veggies are organic when you order. They have about 12 locations right now, and I really hope they grow into a larger chain so that more of us have access to pizza places like this!
Pure Pizza – I simply love this place. If you are ever in Charlotte, this is the place to go. They have an amazing organic sprouted grain crust, and source their toppings locally.
Truly Organic Pizza – This pizza chain in Florida is USDA certified organic. Because of this, none of their ingredients can be GMO, and all of their meats are antibiotic-free and not injected with hormones. I called them up and asked specifically about hidden MSG ingredients. They told me that they do not use any flavor enhancers such as autolyzed yeast extract or hydrolyzed proteins to season their food. They cook their meatballs and chicken from scratch and only season them with basic seasonings like what we would use at home! This is another great option if you are in Florida.
My Favorite Homemade Pizza Recipe – If you don’t have pizza restaurants like these in your neck of the woods, my homemade pizza recipe is super simple and will be ready in less time than it would take you to order and have it delivered – I promise! This recipe cures my pizza craving in no time!
If you know someone who is ordering or eating pizza with these terrible ingredients, help them make the switch by sharing this very important information with them!
Together we are changing the world, one company at a time, by sharing the truth.


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I hope you all have had a great Hump Day.  Mine was incredibly . . . taxing . . . which I may or may not tell you about later.

Monday, March 24, 2014

2 years

Exactly 2 years ago today I started this blog.  My first couple of posts are really, really lame, so I'm not linking them.  But I am so happy that I started this.  I only have 14 followers on Blogger (and about 11 on Bloglovin - some are repeats) so it's a small audience, but I appreciate all of you that read me.  I know I ramble, I know I don't always talk about running.  I post a lot of stuff about my family and my general life, but I write what is going through my head.  I appreciate each of you that comments, and I have started replying to your comments.  =)  Without the blogging community I would not have continued to run, nor would I have started eating so drastically different.  This blog may not be big, it may not be very interesting, but it is my little spot in the world for me to let the thoughts that are in my head out.  And I love it.  Thank you for reading.  =)

On Friday I debated whether or not to run at all.  I knew that I had already ran 4 days and I was planning to run 6 miles on Saturday (or was thinking about it).  However, I know that often I will put off my run on Saturday and then just "not feel like it" and skip it, so I thought I should go ahead and do a run Friday, just in case. 

Damian was supposed to go to gymnastics immediately after school and then immediately after that he had baseball practice.  Since I get off work at 1pm on Fridays I decided that I would get out the treadmill and run while Maddox is napping before D is out of school.  Like I've said multiple times lately, I hate the treadmill so I decided to do some speed work, which I don't ever do.  I did intervals.  I ran half a mile warm up at a comfortable speed (6mph, or 10 min/mile), then I sped it up to 8mph (7.5 min/mile) for half a mile, then down to 5mph (12 min/mile) for a quarter of a mile. I did this 4 times.  This was a very hard, but satisfying, workout for me.  I haven't ever been really concerned about speeding up, but I enjoyed the variety on the treadmill.  It went much, much faster than just running one speed for 4 or 5 miles.  I might do this every Friday, especially since D is always super busy in the spring and it's possible I won't have him to watch Maddox much for me during the week.

The total mileage for my intervals was 3.5, and honestly, I don't think I could have gone farther.  It was that hard, especially the last interval.  I suppose I could have sped the treadmill up to a 6 again and done one more half mile, but I was literally dripping by the time I was done.  I can't believe that some people do that 6 or 8 times.  I guess I may need to work on that.  =)

Saturday I got my nails done.  I have been getting my nails done for a couple months now and it's not that notable.  I wouldn't even bring it up today except while I was there on Saturday there was a mother with her 4 daughters (preteen to late teen) and grandson (1 yr old from the oldest daughter) getting their nails done.  I watched the family while I was there, and I watched the grandson take some of his very first steps.  He was very, very adorable.  Anyway, they were talking about what they needed to do while they were in town, they listed off several stores and errands and the nail lady asked where they were from.  They said Darrington.  Darrington is a very small community, kinda in the middle of nowhere.  This is not anything interesting . . . until I got home and was watching the news.  There was a large mudslide in that area. 

As I have watched the news all weekend and then this morning, I have wondered about that family.  Was the father at home when it happened?  How about the father of the grandson?  How did that family get home and who did they know that is still missing or has been confirmed dead.  Since it is such a small community, I know that they know everyone there.  I came from a small community (500 people in the town I went to school in) and I knew pretty much everyone there, or at least their names.  Anyway, as of this morning there were 8 confirmed dead and "dozens" missing. 

I did not run on Saturday.  I did some cleaning in the house, and in the yard.  And then watched Frozen with Maddox.  =) 

~As a side note~ Have you read this story about my neighbors?  Oh and then this story. Well, last week (or maybe 2 weeks ago) the neighbor wife came over again and told me that she finds it "very suspicious" that her husband and I are always leaving and coming home at the same times.  I have no idea if it happens or not, I don't pay any attention to them or what they do.  The first incident happened almost a year ago and even though we were once friendly, I pretty much never talk to either of them, or even care to anymore.  I told her (again) that nothing is going on, that I don't want to sleep with her nasty husband.  I should have just said why are you still on this?  get over it and let me live my life.  But I didn't, I was polite and listened to her.  So yesterday I was outside in my driveway (let me say that again) MY driveway, and the husband was working on his motorcycle in his driveway.  He looks at me and says "why do you have to do that there?"  And then 2 min later says "well, I have to go inside so I don't get divorced."  How ridiculous. ~end rant~

Yesterday I ran for 8 miles.  And honestly, I felt really good.  I just picked my last 8 mile run and did it again.  I don't know if I'll increase the miles next week, but my 8 mile runs are feeling awesome.  =)  However, I did notice that I have lots of blisters on my toes.  One even formed under one that had popped and was healing (the healing one didn't hurt, the other one hurt badly) and another right next to that.  I desperately need new shoes.  I showed Chris my toes and told him I may dip into the house account to buy my shoes and reimburse it when I get paid because I seriously don't think I can last another 2 weeks with these shoes.  I saw a question on Facebook awhile ago from another running page (I don't remember which one) that asked what would you rather have, blisters or shin splints.  Well, I have suffered from shin splints pretty regularly since starting running, and now that I have multiple blisters, I would say I would rather have shin splints.  Blisters suck.  (Since I'm linking old posts, here are couple from when I started running about blisters.  First one and then my solution, if you don't read those, just remember, don't use duct tape on blisters.)

One last thing, my weight has stayed steady at 147.2.  It fluctuates up some and yesterday it was down to 145.8 after my run, but most mornings it's at 147.2.  I am happy with that number, yes, I wish it would go down again, but for now I will remember that 2 years ago I was around 172 (after losing 5 lbs) and a year ago I was at 154.  It may not be a huge loss, but it is a loss, and that is a step in the right direction.  =)

A little over 2 years ago. (I thought I looked great,
I had lost 10 or so lbs.  Plus I was breast feeding,
so my boobs were huge.)


Friday, March 21, 2014

Random thoughts

I haven't talked about it at all on here, but I've had some issues with one of my sisters since before Christmas.  She is upset with me and another of my sisters for several reasons that I feel are not my fault or the fault of my other sister that she is mad at.  I think (she'd never admit it though) that her biggest problem with us is that she views us as successful and happy, and she is not.  I don't want to go into any details, but through emails many things were said by all three of us that hurt each other's feelings and she quit talking to me and my other sister.

I have been really sad about this.  It was especially sad in Feb when my youngest sister came to WA from North Carolina for a visit and she wouldn't come see us when we were all together.  She refused to go to Long Beach with my family, and she refused to get the family tattoo that we all got.  I have been so sad and upset about it lately that I have started dreaming about her and then when I wake up and realize that we are still not talking, I get even more sad. 

Anyway, Wednesday I wrote an email to her.  I don't feel like I apologized (I really don't feel like I have anything to apologize for) but I wanted to let her know that I understand she is hurt and would like to make things better between us.  I spent at least an hour writing it, and then I let it sit overnight and I read and re-read it (for about an hour) yesterday morning.  I finally sent it.  I don't know what to expect from her.  I hope that the email didn't offend her more and I hope that she responds in some way to me.  Even if it is in anger, which would be better than the silence.

Anyway, that has been on my mind for awhile now, and I think writing the email really helped get it out of my head. 
Top picture: Barbara, Cathy (me), Nancy, Tami
Well, I did not run on Wednesday, but I did run yesterday, 4.77 miles.  I am planning to run today and tomorrow, which would mean 6 days this week.  I may skip one of the days (I don't normally run 6 days) but I have been enjoying the runs, so I keep doing them.  If I run today and tomorrow, 4 miles, I will have run 29 miles this month.  I am happy with that.  If I only run 4 miles each day, 27 for the week, and if I only run one day, 5 miles, that puts me at 24.  All numbers I'm happy with.  =)  Puts me right at where I need to be to get 100 miles in March.

I can definitely tell I need new shoes.  I have been getting blisters and right now I have some pretty strong shin splints.  I may go today and get some.  I don't really have the money, but I don't think I can wait 2 weeks. 

I don't think I've mentioned, I've been so focused on food and weight on here that I keep forgetting, but I started waking up about 15 min early every weekday morning and doing some stretching.  I have a hard time some mornings getting up, but for the most part I've been very successful with it.  I definitely enjoy it, but am frustrated that it takes so long to be "flexible."  I guess I just need to keep with it. 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

A post all about food

My husband, Chris, he's a fantastic guy.  He really is.  He works as a contractor for Comcast (I hate Comcast, by the way), and he works hard every day.  He works 4 10's (4 days a week for 10 hours a day).  And he has Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday off.  I hate that shift because we haven't had a weekend off together for 5 years, unless he takes it off.  But it does allow us to have minimal daycare costs.  Maddox only has to go to daycare on Monday's and Tuesday's (typo) Friday's and that is nice.  It also gives him lots of bonding time with Maddox, which I think is great, especially since he didn't have that time with Damian (we were separated and getting divorced when Damian was that small). 

Because Chris is home 3 days a week, he does the cooking on those 3 days.  I cook on my days off, and we make Damian cook once a week on Mondays. Chris likes food.  Chris likes fattening food.  Chris likes potatoes.  Chris likes grease and cream and butter.  I happen to agree with him, Chris makes really good food.  His cream of potato soup is fantastic.  He makes the best sauteed mushrooms, ever (cooked in lots of butter) (and he hates mushrooms, he makes them for me).  He makes this fantastic "mock enchilada" dish with lots of chili, cheese, and corn tortillas (fried in oil), and eaten with tortilla chips.  He loves spaghetti and meatballs, and he makes it very good (however, I am not a huge fan of spaghetti). 

Do you see a pattern here?  All of Chris's food is so fattening, and unhealthy.  No wonder I gained weight when we got back together 6 years ago.  No wonder I plateau so often.  When I first started running and eating better, I ate the same foods, just less of them.  And I lost weight, and then I didn't anymore.  I started eating a little better, I started making better chicken dishes (no more chicken with mushroom gravy, except as a occasional treat).  And I lost more weight, until I didn't anymore.  Chris has never changed up his dishes.  He actually starts adding (good tasting) things to them, but often those things are not good for me foods. 

For whatever reason 3 weeks ago I started losing weight again.  I think it was because I got sick and quit eating for a couple days, a couple weekends in a row.  I noticed it on the scale and started eating much better because suddenly I was motivated again.  I have been eating lots of chicken, not fattening, breaded chicken drenched in some sauce, but plain, seasoned chicken cooked on the stovetop.  I will eat meat that Chris cooks, but have avoided most potatoes and other starches.  I started making chicken salads for lunch, and quit drinking 2 glasses of wine a day. 

Anyway, last week Chris made spaghetti, like I said above, I am not a big spaghetti fan (the best part about spaghetti is the garlic bread), so it was easy for me to say I'll just have my chicken.  When I told Chris that, he got mad at me.  I kinda yelled at him.  I told him he can eat whatever he wants, but he knows how I am trying to eat lately and I wasn't asking him to cook me something special, I'll cook it myself.  I told him that if he ever decides to try to lose weight I will support him 100% and will cook him food that is healthy, but if he is not going to cook food that is part of how I am trying to eat, then he has no right to complain about me not eating it.  He apologized and I ate my chicken (and it was good, I didn't miss the spaghetti at all). 

Sunday he made his "mock enchilada" dish.  That is probably the most unhealthy, fattening food he makes.  I said, that was fine, I was going to have my chicken.  I saw that look on is face again, the one that says he was going to get mad at me, however, he just said, okay.  I think he's accepting my food choices.  =)  Now, if only he would make some of those choices for himself.  Today he's making flank steak tacos, and I am okay with that.  I will eat those, maybe only one or two with the tortilla, and then just the meat and condiments, we'll see how I feel.  I am okay with eating some bread-type stuff, I am just trying to limit it.  I'd say it's about 80-90% out of my diet. 

Yesterday I did go for a run.  I went 5 miles.  Chris didn't get home until after 5pm and we decided to do a small shopping trip because neither one of us wanted to go shopping.  So we just did basic things we needed and I was able to do my run.  =)

Here are the pictures I tried to add yesterday, but couldn't.
D's robot is the one about to grab the ball.

And here it is about to score by putting the ball in the box.

Damian chilling at the hotel Saturday afternoon.
I have no pictures of his gymnastics meet.  He likes me to take videos, and I can't upload them. 

MaryFran asked how D did at his gymnastics meet.  I completely forgot to add that part. 

His robotics team's robot broke in the second round and they were unable to completely fix it.  They had to miss one round and then for the rest of the tournament (through Saturday) it only partly worked.  So his robotics team got 25 out of 30 teams (I think).

Damian did well in his gymnastics meet.  It wasn't his best meet of the year, but it definitely wasn't his worst.  He did qualify for regionals, so we're back to Portland in April. 

Monday, March 17, 2014

Busy, yet relaxing, weekend

This weekend was quite a busy weekend for me, especially Friday.  I worked my normal half day on Friday and then went to Damian's robotics competition at the high school.  I have never seen a robotics competition before, so it was quite interesting.  Those kids really get into it.  =)  I dropped Damian off at the school in the morning and there were a bunch of kids going into the gym where the event was being held, and he said "Soooo many nerds, I'm glad I'm one of them."  =)  It is taking me some time to get used to my very, very active sports kid being so involved in robotics and very "nerdy" activities.  Don't get me wrong, I think it's great, just not something I pictured him ever doing, especially with his learning disorder.  My sister came up to watch the competition with me, which was nice, but we were both shocked by the level of spirit and just plain "nerdiness" that was displayed the whole time. 

We grew up in a very, very small town (I had 14 kids in my graduating class), if you didn't play sports you were weird.  And you played everything.  I played volleyball, basketball, tennis, and was a cheerleader.  This was common (well, except for the cheerleading part, only 5 girls on the squad).  We didn't have things like robotics.  My sister was the same way, except she didn't like basketball and didn't play it.  So for us to see the level of, I don't really know what to call it, "spirit" (I guess) was strange to us as it wasn't a sporting event.  The kids dressed up, face paint and all, it looked like one of our homecoming games.  It was strange (for us country bumpkins).  =)  And then throw my "jock" kid into that . . . and enjoying himself . . . was even more strange. 

Damian, since he was 6, has played multiple sports.  He started out with baseball, then a year later he played soccer, then basketball.  Then he quit soccer, started gymnastics, started wrestling.  Then he quit basketball and wrestling (this year), but continues with baseball and gymnastics and next year wants to try for football.  To me, this is the definition of a jock (not in a bad way), and yet, he identifies with the "nerds."  (I use the word "nerds" because that is what he called himself and liked the word.)  Needless to say, I am having a hard time getting my head wrapped around it.

Before the robotics competition was over, we had to leave.  Damian had his state gymnastics meet in Vancouver, WA on Saturday morning and we were driving down there Friday night.  However, Damian also starts driver's ed in a week and wanted to get his driver's permit, so he wanted to stop by the DOL on the way out of town and that closed at 5pm.  So we stopped there, and then drove through rush hour traffic south to Vancouver. 

We got to our hotel at about 10pm and then we had to go to his meet at 8am.  We were at his gymnastics meet until early afternoon on Saturday.  I treated him to Red Lobster (with my Christmas gift card from Chris) and then back to the hotel. We walked over to Fred Meyer to let the food settle in my stomach and then back to the hotel.

I am excited to say that I went for a 5 mile run after we got back.  I was really apprehensive about it.  I didn't know where to go.  The hotel was on a really busy street, with lots of fast food places and stores (Fred Meyer, Trader Joe's, etc.) and I didn't want to run on it.  I looked up a satellite map of the area and found that just behind the hotel, with one connecting street, there was a residential area and if I went far enough there was a small park with a trail in it.  So I went that way.  I was planning on only doing 4 miles, but it honestly felt so good, and it went by so quick that I went 2.5 miles out and then 2.5 miles back. 

I got back and Damian and I went for a swim in the hotel's pool.  And let me tell you, getting in that water right after running was the most amazing feeling ever!  I need a pool now.  I avoided the hot tub at first because I was still hot from my run, but after cooling down in the pool, the hot tub felt fabulous too.  I would settle for a hot tub, if I can't have a pool. 

After swimming we ordered a pizza and I let Damian drive (it was mainly through parking lots to Pizza Hut, no traffic at all).  We watched Catching Fire (what we bought at Fred Meyer) on my computer and I fell asleep at about 11pm. 

I was so excited to sleep in on Sunday.  No Maddox, didn't need to be out of the hotel till 11am.  And I woke up at 7am, which is only a half hour later than I usually wake up on weekends.  =(  I laid in bed and read a book and watched some TV while Damian snoozed.  I woke him up about 9:30 and we got ready and left.  The drive home was much quicker than the drive down.  And when I got home I went for another run.  =)  Only 4 miles, but it was nice to know that I did it.

I did not eat very well over the weekend.  Fast food both Friday (McDonald's, first time in months and months,yuck!) and Sunday (Wendy's, slightly better tasting, but still, ugh!) while on the road.  Red Lobster (crab and shrimp are good for you, butter and biscuits are not, nor probably was the lobster bisque . . .and the long island iced tea) for lunch on Saturday and then pizza, popcorn, and wine for dinner.  However, I was bracing myself this morning for a weigh in of 150 . . . and I was 148.2.  I will take that as a win.  It's still up, but still under 150.  =)  Really good eating planned for the week, and hopefully my weight will be back down to 146-145 on Wednesday.  =)

I'd like to run today, but we have to go grocery shopping, so I don't know if I'll be able to.  Depends on if Chris gets home before I can get out the door.  =)

I have some pictures, but they are not sending to my email . . . so you may not get them.  Sorry!

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

A weight loss, fun weekend, and some race contemplation

Well, I don't know what to think.  My weigh in this morning was back down to 145.2.  I was super happy, but knew I was more than normal morning-lack-of-water dehydrated.  I had a small headache and that is always my biggest clue.  Anyway, I went ahead and updated my weight on my "official" page, but that always worries me. 

I have been eating super clean for the last 2 or 3 weeks.  Pretty much since I got sick.  The biggest indulgence I have is my coffee in the morning with my coffeemate creamer.  I just love the flavors of the coffeemate.  I am still drinking wine, but not as much, but I have avoided almost all carbs (the bread and potatoes kind).  I have had some sugar here and there.  Today I was up at the front of my office where there is a lot of different candy dishes, and without thinking I grabbed a handful of lemonheads and popped them in my mouth.  Afterwards I went and brushed my teeth, otherwise I would be back for more.  Overall, I'd say I'm close to 80/20 clean eating. 

This weekend I am going to Vancouver, WA (just north of Portland, OR) to take Damian to his state gymnastics meet.  I was going to stay with a friend, but when I realized that the meet was north of Portland, and she lives east of Portland and the drive to the meet would be an hour and a half from her house, after driving 4 hours the day before to get down there, I decided to just get a hotel room.  I have a friend that works at Best Western, so she gave me a friends and family deal, which is great. 

I also decided to stay for the whole weekend.  Technically Damian's meet is over early afternoon on Saturday and we could come home, but I thought it would be fun to have a fun weekend away with him.  We are going to hang out in the hot tub and the pool and just have a good weekend together.  We haven't really had a whole lot of "us" time since we moved back in with Chris 6 years ago and none since I had Maddox.  I think Damian is excited to have some one on one time with Mom.  He has always been a Mama's Boy, and I'm okay with that.  =)

However, I doubt I will run over the weekend.  I always say I will, but then something happens and I end up not doing it.  I will take my running clothes, but I doubt they will be used.  There is a fitness center, so maybe . . .

Yesterday was an "easy" 5 miles.  I am really enjoying my 5 mile runs lately.  I have some steep uphill at the beginning and then some gradual uphill for most of the rest, going downhill for the last mile or so, but I am okay with it all.  It is amazing to me that I can call that an "easy" run.  =) 

I am still contemplating running Bloomsday in Spokane this year.  I walked it last year with Nancy and enjoyed it, but we walked.  And she won't run it with me (she's not a runner).  And there is the dreaded Doomsday Hill (4th one down in the Runner's World article I linked).   I haven't been training for the Hill at all.  I think about it, and then I think I have plenty of time, but it's mid-March now, and the run in the first weekend in May . . . I need to get out of my "safezone" and do some major hill work.  All my hills are either very gradual that you don't notice when driving (you do notice while running) or really steep short ones.  Doomsday is about 0.75 miles, not toooo steep, but steeper than my gradual hills. 
The picture I took last year.  It doesn't look bad, but it's long.
I also have The Tulip Run coming up the first weekend in April.  Nancy and I walked that one in 2012 and then skipped it last year.  Nancy is not interested in doing the Tulip Run again, but I want to actually run it, so I'm going to.  A coworker has talked about running it as well, she's the one I did the Nookachamps Run with in January.  We won't run together, but it was fun to see each other before and after the Nookachamps.  =)

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Leash your dogs!!!

Let me tell you about my Thursday run last week.  It was very uneventful, until the very end.  I end about 98% of my runs the exact same way.  I go through a quiet cul-de-sac area and then onto my road for the last couple of blocks.  I run this way on purpose, the cul-de-sac area is a gradual downhill and I like ending my run on a downhill.  Makes me like running more. =) 

Anyway, I was about to the end of the cul-de-sac area (it's not really a cul-de-sac, but similar) and going to turn onto a busier street that I run on for a block before turning onto my street and home (another 2 blocks), so I was very close to home.  I noticed that the corner house leaving the cul-de-sac area to the bigger street had a lady standing outside with a dog (looked similar to a collie) on a leash and two grey pitbulls running around without leashes.  I like dogs, I have a small one, and grew up with a farm dog.  I don't have a thing against pitbulls, I know they have a bad rap, but I honestly believe it depends on how you raise the dog (any dog). But 2 pitbulls without a leash outside, on the sidewalk I was about to run on, yeah, not my idea of a good time.  So I moved over to the middle of the street and started walking.

The dogs saw me, and charged at me, one circling behind me, with the other in front of me.  Perfect attack positions.  And they both jumped on me.  I looked down, avoided eye contact and put my hands up (I didn't want them to bite my hands).  Oh, and stopped walking.  I didn't know what to do.  The dog behind me bit my jacket, but didn't get me.  The lady with the other dog on the leash was pulling at that dog and screaming at the other 2.  They finally left me, and I continued to walk past the house.  I am so happy nothing else happened.  I am so happy I wasn't a child, or there with my child.  I turned the corner and ran home. 

When I got home, I called the police.  My biggest pet peeve is dogs not on a leash.  I wasn't harmed, they didn't even tear my clothing, but I was attacked. I felt the lady needed some sort of "talking to" by someone "in charge" about having her dogs on a leash.  (Actually I think she dog-sits them, I've only seen them once before, and I know they have another dog, I pass its very sad, very neglected face in the fenced part of the yard everyday.)  I think an officer went to the house and talked to the lady.  He also said he would file a report with animal control.  But I don't think anything else did or will happen, and I'm okay with that.  Just as long as no one gets hurt.  And maybe, if there's a next time, she'll apologize to the person the dogs jump on (yes, I got no apology, she didn't say one word to me).

Cute as a puppy.
Still cute . . . but bigger.
Anyway, that is my "big" running story.  Very scary for me.  I was nervous about running past the house again on Friday, but I did.  And then I did 8 miles on Sunday and didn't run past the house.  Today I probably will.  I need to remember to take my pepper spray.  Chris asked me why I didn't spray the dogs, and I told him I didn't have it.  But to be honest I don't think I would have thought about it.

I figured out the big weight loss of last week.  I don't know why I didn't think of it before.  Today I stepped on the scale and up again to 147.4.  I was frustrated, upset, sad.  I ate fabulously yesterday, definitely a 2lb weight lose day, right?  Nope, up 0.4lbs.  And then I used the bathroom again before going to work . . .

Anyway,yes, I lost about 3 lbs in a week, no, I don't think I lost 5 lbs in a week.  I always weigh less the week before my period starts.  And my period started today.  Ugh!  a 144 weigh in is not going to happen tomorrow.  =( 

Another great day of eating today.  So far zero sugar, and that's good.  =)

Monday, March 10, 2014

More than you probably want to know about my weight this last week

I work in the mental health field, so I know it's not unusual for my clients to be depressed.  However, I have noticed a lot more people feeling "down" (maybe not completely depressed, but definitely feeling blue).  I experience SAD (seasonal affective disorder) to a limited degree, but it appears to have hit more people this year than I have noticed in the past.  Chris said he was feeling depressed lately, and a lot of my clients have stated they are feeling more "blue" than normal.  Even some of the bloggers I read have said they are experiencing it.

In other parts of the US and Canada, winter has been really, really severe this year.  Western WA hasn't been much different than normal though, so it's interesting that so many people here are affected as well.  Anyway, I hope that if you are suffering anything from a "blue" period to depression, you know you are not alone and to surround yourself with supportive people, maybe even a dr who can prescribe meds if needed, or be someone you can talk to.

So . . . I have been so elated over my weight being down.  I am so scared to eat anything different than I have been that my lunches were becoming very boring.  I eat hard boiled eggs for breakfast every morning, I've been doing that for awhile now.  With a 3.5 lb weight loss, myfitnesspal told me that I needed to eat less calories, so I eliminated one of my eggs (I was eating 3).  I don't notice a huge difference, thankfully, in hunger in the morning.  I have been making a chicken breast for lunch and have had a piece of fruit with it.  Monday was avocado, Tuesday was apple, and Wednesday was a banana.  Thursday I decided to put my chicken in a salad (with some ranch) so I did that and had another banana.

Wednesday with my weigh-in being so low (the lowest I had seen for many, many, many years), I was feeling good about myself.  Sometimes we have drug representatives come to the office to peddle their mental health drugs and they bring us breakfast.  They always have fruit, but they also usually have bagels, donuts, or muffins.  I don't know if I've mentioned this, but I have a weakness for donuts.  I have a hard time walking away from them.  (In fact, there was some in the break room on Monday and I left them in the morning, but they were still there after lunch and I ended up eating one.)  Well, Wed. I did not look closely at what they had, I got my water and left.

THEN that afternoon, Costco came by to sell memberships and they brought muffins, cookies, fruit, and other stuff I don't remember.  Anyway, I grabbed a half of a muffin and a banana.  I came back to my desk and took a nibble of the muffin, and then set it aside.  I had some appts and when I came back to my desk I decided to leave the muffin until Thursday.  Then I thought, no, I don't want this, and I threw it away, away from my desk.  I was proud of myself.  =)

Then that evening I had 2 glasses of wine.  I obsessed over the second glass of wine all night (even in my dreams).  I was so worried that I had jumped back up to 150, I KNEW I had jumped back up.  Thursday morning I weighed myself again and yay!!! 146.4, down 0.2 lbs.  Thursday night I was better and Friday I was down again, 145.6.

Friday night I went to a friend's house to hang out.  I knew I was going to be drinking, so I ate very well, and not a whole lot all day.  I was really worried about my weight spiking back up to 150.  I had to be home early Saturday morning, so I was very worried about getting up on time.  I ended up not drinking very much, and then not sleeping very well.  When I got home, after drinking some water on the way home (no coffee till I was home) I weighed myself and I was down to 144.2.  I was amazed, shocked, ecstatic . . .

Saturday I ate popcorn late in the evening, and had more wine than I have for more than a week.  I was back up to 145.6 Sunday morning.  Then yesterday, Sunday, I went for my first long run in 3 weeks, and decided to splurge on a blizzard (small) after dinner.  Today my weight was back up to 147.0.  Can you believe that a week ago I was super excited to see 147.6 and today I'm a little bummed to see 147.0?  What a difference a week makes. 
Or none . . .
Today is a rest day for running (I think, I still haven't completely decided), so I'm going to tighten up my eating.  Since I changed my weight on, my calorie limit went down, but other than Saturday (the popcorn and wine did me in) I have been below my new calorie limit every day.  I am super proud of that, I tend to not do well with my diet.

It's funny because I have lost 5 lbs (and gained 2 from last night) in a week and I want everyone to notice.  I notice all my clothes fitting looser, and I see more definition in my stomach.  I'm so excited to have broken free of the plateau I've been in, I want everyone to notice.  No one has, well, Chris said something as I was getting dressed the other day, but he's the only one that's seen me naked.  Oh well, I have to be happy that I notice.  =)

My official weigh in isn't till Wednesday, so I guess I'll see how it goes.  =)

I don't intend to chain myself to the scale, but I know that if I don't weigh myself regularly I tend to start letting things slip.  And with this losing streak, I want to be on top of it as much as possible.  I want this weight to stick.  If I'm stuck at 147 (or lower?!) for 10 months I'm okay with that . . . I see a trend where I get in a plateau for awhile and then a big loss.  This time it was just a 9 month plateau.  Maybe I can make it shorter next time . . .

I didn't intend this post to be all about my weight, it just got away from me.  I am a little obsessed with it right now.  I do have some runs I want to talk about, most notably my Thursday run, but I guess I will save that for tomorrow, or maybe I'll do a double post today.  We'll see how much time I have to type it up.  =)
Because it made me laugh!

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Weight loss, treadmills, and rain . . . and more rain

It's raining here . .. I know, it's western WA, it always rains.  But it's raining so much that we have flood and mudslide warnings.  There's a lot of water right now.  Just letting you know.  =)

It is amazing how motivating losing a little bit of weight is.  I was sick on Sunday.  I wasn't feeling my best on Saturday night, but not the same as on Sunday.  And again Monday morning I still didn't feel all that great.  I barely ate anything Sunday, just some crackers throughout the day and then some chicken noodle soup (Campbell's) that evening after I thought my stomach would hold onto it a little.  Monday morning after my coffee and breakfast I didn't feel too good, so I ate sparingly again.  However, I felt pretty good that evening so I ate a regular dinner.  And I am down 3.4 pounds, which puts me at 146.6.  And now I don't want to eat anything that might make that number jump back up to 150.

I've been at 150 so long I figured I was at the lowest I would get without some major, major changes.  And I haven't been ready to make those changes.  But seeing that number on the scale (147.6 on Monday and 147.0 yesterday) has made me think maybe 140 is a possibility.  And maybe I DO want to make some major changes.  We shall see how the next few weeks go.

I even updated my "Scale Obsession" page with that number.  I am always so worried about actually telling anyone about a big lose because I am scared I'll gain it back and then have to go through the embarrassment of increasing my weight again.  Last year after I went to Disneyland (exactly a year ago this week) I lost 5 lbs, I was too in disbelief that I could lose 5 lbs while on vacation (and really not eating THAT good) that I only recorded a 3 lb lost.  After a couple weeks of staying at the same weight, I finally took off the last 2 lbs on my "official" record. 

I have been stuck at 150(ish-I fluctuate a lot) since 5/24/13.  I saw 149.0 once on June 21st, but I went right back up.  I am going to keep these 3.5 (almost) pounds off . . . I will.  I have to cut back on what I eat, which I have for the last couple days (since Monday when I first saw 147).  The way I feel today about my body is amazing.  I love it.  =)

So, Monday, I mentioned I wasn't feeling very good in the morning.  I was pretty worried about my run.  Then in the afternoon I was feeling fine, so I decided I would definitely do my run.  However, Damian had baseball tryouts and we needed to run to the store and get him baseball shoes because we had forgotten over the weekend (well, that and I was sick).  Tryouts didn't start till 5, but Chris said he was working late, so I was very concerned about getting my run done.  It has gotten so that my treadmill rarely crosses my mind as an option lately.  I haven't run on it in several months.  Finally I remembered that I COULD use my treadmill (Chris had even cleaned the bedroom last week [put away Christmas stuff]).  I decided to run on that. Afterall, I hadn't run since Friday.

I set it up and was waiting for D to get out of the shower (so he could watch Maddox) and noticed funny things happening on the screen.  I couldn't get it to work at all, I reset it half a dozen times and still funny things.  I found the manual and was looking at the "troubleshooting" area, when something caught my eye and I realized the "key" (the magnetic thing you clip one end to your body so if you fall off the treadmill doesn't grind you into dust, but that no one uses) wasn't in its spot.  The cats had carried it off somewhere.  I was trying to figure out if a regular magnet from my fridge would work (it didn't) when I saw it hidden other some other stuff.  Phew!

5 miles on the treadmill sucks.  I hate it.  For some reason, the surge protector that the treadmill and TV were plugged in turned off and then back on, which wiped out my stats on the treadmill.  Luckily I was diligently watching my stats counting down each min (seriously, on the treadmill, I can't help but count down each min) so I knew about where I was.  But then, I was almost done and my finger caught the "key" and wiped out my stats again. So annoying.  I'm thinking of duct taping the key to the treadmill.  Every once in awhile when I get worried about falling I'll think about how I can grab it fast enough if I start to fall, but I know that will never happen (not the falling, but the grabbing). 

Yesterday I didn't particularly want to run in the rain.  It has been pouring-and drizzling heavily- here for the last week or so.  Yesterday was one of those days that when you look outside it doesn't look like it's raining, but when you step outside you realize the drizzle is so fine that you can't see it, but so heavy that you are soaked instantly (only in western WA *sigh).  I hate that kind of "rain,"  I miss big fat drops.  I use to love the rain, and then I moved here and the drizzle that they call rain, sucks.  Anyway, I got to thinking that the treadmill wasn't that bad, I could run on that again.  And then I started thinking about what I actually do on the treadmill (stare at the minutes and miles on the screen) and remembered how horrible it really is.  And then I got on Pinterest and saw this . . .
And realized my thinking was totally ridiculous.  So I went for a run.  And it was perfect.  The drizzle had let up and it was cool outside, but not cold.  I'm so glad I ran (when am I not??).  =)  Today is a rest day, have to tighten up my eating even more for rest day!

Monday, March 3, 2014

Bloglovin and 2 year runiversary

One of my favorite blogs lately to read just moved off of blogger.  I have had other blogs that I read that have moved and I haven't been concerned with trying to find them (it's usually easy, they give you their new address) or tried to figure out how to follow them.  I like typing in and just going to the bottom of my news feed (that I've read) and reading up.  I don't have to go to a separate sight to read all my blogs and then come back here to write my blog.  However, I really like Gwen and didn't want to stop following her because she has abandoned blogger for the greener pastures of wordpress.  So, I decided to try out  I already had an account there, I got one when blogger quit their reader site (don't remember what it was, I never went to it)(Google reader??) because I was worried that I would have problems if I didn't sign up for another reader site.  Silly me, I didn't use Google reader, and now I don't use bloglovin.  I just go to my blogger dashboard and read my blogs.  It's worked for 2 years now, I don't see how it wouldn't continue working. 

Except Gwen switched sites on me and I like her blog, a lot.  So yesterday I spent the day trying to figure out bloglovin, so I can continue to follow her.  When I moved my stuff from Google reader to bloglovin, somehow, magically, all the blogs I followed ended up over there, however, I have added quite a few new ones and I had to find each of those and add them to bloglovin.  What a pain in the ass.

Luckily (or not so luckily) I was sick yesterday, so I spent all day on the couch.  I had plenty of time to figure it out (I didn't, I played a game).  I did manage to add (hopefully) all my blogs to bloglovin.  I do like that I can just click "next" at the top and go to the next blog on my list without having to go back to the main page.  But, I discovered this morning, that once I read them, they disappear.  I wanted to go back to look at some I read yesterday, and I don't know where they went.  I mean, I can go to each individual person's blog, but . . . what if I don't remember which blog it was on?  (I was way, way, way behind in my reading.)  And then I saw one today that I forgot to add yesterday, Kelly is hilarious, so I'm glad I realized my mistake.  Now I just have to remember to go there so that I can see Gwen's posts (she's the only one I follow that is not on blogger).

As I mentioned above, I was sick this weekend.  Just yesterday, although I can tell my stomach isn't very happy this morning (maybe the second cup of coffee was a bad idea).  Silly me decided on Saturday to not run.  I was lazy, and had run on Thursday and Friday and was planning to run on Sunday, so I thought a rest day would be okay, especially since my foot has been bothering me a little.  Then on Sunday I had one cup of coffee and spent the rest of the day in the bathroom.  It wasn't fun.  No long run (or any run) again for the 3rd weekend in a row. Ugh!

Guess what I remembered as I was typing this.  Up in the end of the first paragraph I said "It's worked for 2 years now" and realized that I completely missed my 2 year runiversary.  February 26, 2012 I started running regularly (again).  =)  I didn't even run on Feb 26th this year.  It was a rest day (last Wednesday) and we went grocery shopping. =(  Oh well, I'm going to continue to run, my 1 year runiversary was exciting for me, because I didn't stop running like I normally do.  This year, running is just part of my life.  I do it.  I don't always want to, but I always end up lacing up my shoes at some point and doing it.  Here is a post about my first "run" if you're interested.  And here is my one year runiversary post, which explains where my love of running comes from.