Saturday, March 31, 2012

Eastern Washington

My family has always been very close.  Like I've said before, my parents live in eastern Washington.  My dad is a wheat farmer with his older brother.  My mom grew up in western WA, but has now lived east of the mountains for far longer than she lived west of the mountains.

middle of summer near where I grew up.
If people aren't familiar with this area, WA is pretty much two different states.  There is western WA, where Seattle is, and where it rains.  This is the area most people associate with WA.  It used to drive me nuts when I lived in e. WA to tell someone I was from WA state and they'd always talk about the rain.  It rarely rains in e. WA.  In fact, where my parents live it is more desert like than rainy.  And, other than rolling hills, it's pretty flat and brown.  I always find it funny to see the "Keep Washington Green" signs along the highway in e. WA in the middle of the summer.

I didn't go for a run today but my sister and I went for a walk.  We walked to my grandma's house, which is my parents' closest neighbor 2 miles away.  This next Saturday we're walking in the Tulip Run which is 5 miles.We thought this would be a good indication of how fast we can walk it.  We did the walk today in an hour and fourteen minutes.  But going back there are more hills going up.  I'm pretty confident we could walk the Tulip Run in an hour and a half.  I'm really looking forward to it.
This is the view headed back to my parents' house. 
Their house is visible at the top of this hill.

At my parents' house I find myself snacking all the time. I don't know why, my sister said she does the same thing. I wonder if it's because growing up my mom always had lots of snack foods around. We were very active kids, played a lot of sports so the snack foods didn't affect us then. Now we all struggle with weight (I have 3 sisters, but am closest to one). Add I type this I'm sitting here eating dried mango, which sounds healthy but has 160 calories in 6 pieces and 32g of sugar. That's crazy! I've had way more than 6 pieces. Cathy, put. the. mango. down! 

Friday, March 30, 2012

Weigh in

It's nice to weigh in and see a loss. :-)  Yesterday I weighed in "unofficially" and was down 2 lbs, but I didn't want to get my hopes up.  I know that my weight fluctuates a lot, and my dinners have been TERRIBLE.  Chris made cream of potato soup last night, and while I try to limit my intake, I still get really hungry later and tend to graze.  I limited my grazing down to 2 *sigh* s'mores.  However, this morning I was down 3 lbs from my last "official" weigh in.  Yay! 

I don't know why I'm so hesitant to write my weight.  I feel ashamed that I weigh so much, but at the same time I weigh less than a lot of other people whose blogs I read.  So I guess I'm ashamed that I weigh so little and am trying to lose weight . . . but here it goes . . . my official weight in Feb was around 175 (I wasn't trying to lose weight then, so I wasn't paying a lot of attention to how much I weighed.  I think I was even 177 at some point).  When I had my son 9 months ago I had only gained 18 lbs -I started at 170- (unhealthy I know, long story, I was eating everything I could, he just didn't gain weight, I had many ultrasounds to find out why I wasn't gaining and they said everything was fine. It wasn't, the cord was wrapped around his throat and was almost flat, very scary).  Anyway, I lost it all and even was down to 167 within 3 months.  But then in Feb I was up to 175-177 and decided I would start walking.  Chris and I started walking everyday, but then he got a metal detector and quit walking with me in favor of metal detecting, so I started running Feb 28th.  I decided I wasn't doing it to lose weight, just to get healthy.  I don't like limiting what I eat, so I decided I would exercise and see where my weight went.  Then I wasn't losing anything so I decided to start watching what I eat.  And here I am . . . today my official weight is 169!  :-)  Whew, I really didn't mean to go into all of that. 

Anyway, this is just a quick check-in with my good news since I'm technically supposed to be working.  :-) 

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Rain, rain go away, don't come back another day . . .

Do you know why western Washington is so green and pretty?  Because it rains ALL THE TIME.  Yesterday I said I didn't want to go running because it was cold, rainy and windy . . . well, today was worse, more rain. 

I grew up on a dry-land wheat farm in eastern WA.  My parents prayed for rain.  We LOVED rain.  We wanted it to rain.  Any rain between Nov and June was good.  Walking in the rain, jumping in puddles, rain was wanted and very, very good.  Then I moved to w. WA . . . Rain in w. WA is a lot different than rain in e. WA. Raindrops in e. WA are big and it rains for a day, maybe a few hours and then the sun comes back.  W. WA raindrops are small and it will rain for days, weeks, months at a time and when it's not raining, it's cloudy.  I still love e. WA rain, I can't stand w. WA rain.

Needless to say, I did not want to run today.  While at the store, we bought some Nutella, which I have never tried.  I told myself I went for a run I would be allowed a taste of Nutella.  So, I went for a run.  I have to say, I don't see how people can eat Nutella by itself.  I think it would be good on something or in something, but there is no way I could eat it all by itself, especially not a large amount.  I'm thinking of making this muffin recipe tomorrow for breakfast with Nutella on top. 

I've been making green monsters every morning with spinach and banana or blueberries.  I've really enjoyed them, but I think I'm getting a little tired of them.  Maybe the muffin will be a nice change. 

So I tried running up horrendous hill today.  I was successful, although I stopped halfway up and then at the top.  I took pictures and am embarrassed to post them.  The hill doesn't look that bad at all, I think it's just because I'm running and it's quite a long gradual incline to get to the steeper part so I'm already worn out.  Instead I'll just post a pretty flowering tree.  :-)

Friday is my official weigh-in.  I weighed myself last night after the horribly good meal I had and was done almost a pound from last week, so I decided to weigh myself this morning on an empty stomach.  I was down 2 lbs! Now I'm worried that on my "official" weigh-in it won't be as good.

I'm headed to e. WA tomorrow for the weekend.  I don't know how much I'll be able to post, if at all.  I will definitely try to, but they live in the middle of nowhere and their internet connection isn't very good.  I get frustrated really quickly, so who knows if I'll have the patience to wait for their connection.  :-)

Wednesday, March 28, 2012


I just posted about the terrible dinner I just ate, and now all I can think about is eating ice cream, or chocolate or making some s'mores . . . ugh!  Someone save me from myself!

Good and bad

I do not want to go running.  It's cold and starting to rain and (the worst) windy.  I hate the wind.  I think it stems from growing up on a wheat farm in e. WA and having dust storms if the wind blows. But I have to go running.  Friday (and possibly Sunday) is my rest day.  I guess I will go running, but I'm going to hate at least the first mile.  *sigh*  Not to mention, I'm extremely tired.  I was up very late last night (11pm is late?  that used to be the time I went out . . . sigh* I really am old).

So, the problem with losing weight getting fit (I'm not losing much weight) is my wedding ring is about to fall off my finger.  I guess that's a good problem to have, but it is very annoying and I'm afraid I'm going to lose it.  I don't want to get it sized  . . . just in case.

 I went for my run.  It wasn't bad.  In fact, I shaved off  56 secs. 
yesterday's run
today's run
You notice that my average pace is better.  :-)  I wonder why my calories are down, since I worked harder because I ran faster.  Oh well.  I won't ever understand that stuff.  That's why I have an app for it. :-)

Yesterday I ran up the gradual incline to the "horrendous hill" and I told myself today I would run up half of HH.  I got up half of it and felt I could have run all the way up, but I stopped anyway because I told myself I was going to.  Isn't it interesting that self-talk can cause you to stop even though you know you can go farther?  I did turn around and take a couple pictures of the hill, to post on here, but I haven't looked at them yet.  Maybe I'll post them tomorrow.  I think I will try to run up HH tomorrow.  I could have done it today.  That's a whole 3 days earlier I planned.  :-)

I did so well on my run today and even started logging my food again.  And then Chris makes his mock enchiladas. These "enchiladas" bubble in grease after they're cooked.  It takes an entire block of cheddar cheese, and an entire family sized Nalley Chili can, with corn tortillas.  Then you put salsa and tortilla chips on top, I did put lettuce on it. :-)  But anyway, it is so good but such a bad, bad food choice. 

Last night we celebrated a friend's birthday since I'm going to be gone this weekend when she wanted to celebrate it. (This is why I was up late last night.)  I was terrible!  I counted the calories I ate yesterday and it was well over 3,000 . . . yes, I said 3,000.  Then I got home and remembered the cake (a very small piece) and ice cream and s'mores (only one) and glass of wine I forgot to add to my total.  I don't even think I want to know what the actual total was. . . a LOT.  I told myself I'd be good today and then Chris makes mock enchiladas for dinner.  *sigh*  Now I have to go add the recipe to sparkpeople to figure out the calories for that.  I'm sure it's 1500 in a small helping.  *SIGH*

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

When did I become old?? and goals

A couple days ago I was running, along one of my favorite trails is a pond . . . sorta, it's probably a sewage thing, but it doesn't smell and there are ducks and goldfish that live there, so I'm not sure what it is.  Anyway, next to this pond were a couple of teenagers, the girl on top of the boy, completely clothed.  And I think, they are too young and need to stop doing that.  The girl sees me and immediately gets up and they start talking as if nothing was happening. After my initial response I had a flashback to being a teenager with my boyfriend (now husband).  How many times did we have completely inappropriate "cuddling" in public, or semi-public places?  When did I start looking at teenagers and think that they are way too young to be doing that sort of thing? 

When I look back at my life, I was doing things that I would KILL my son for doing, and I was doing them at 14.  He's 13 . . .  that's a year 6 months away.  I snuck out of my house a lot at 15.  I look back and think about how old I thought I was.  In reality, I was a little kid.  I knew nothing.  I wish I hadn't done those things.  My poor parents, to see their 15 year old daughter sneaking out and making out with my boyfriend, how terrible.  I hope that my son is a better person than I was.  I can't say that I hope I raised him better than my parents, because my parents were very good parents, there are definitely things that I have changed in my parenting style, but for the most part I try to follow their example. 


I am thinking of setting some goals for my running.  I don't know what good goals are though.  I know one for this week is to run up the horrendous hill on my favorite trail.  It's not the same hill as my Sunday 4 mile run, it is much shorter (4 mile run hill is a longer term goal), but it is still almost straight up, with a gradual incline just before, so it's hard.  Yesterday I was able to run up the gradual incline to the bottom of the horrendous hill.  I was going to say "by Friday I will run all the way up the hill" however, I just remembered that I'm going to my parent's house this weekend, so no run on Friday.  So by Monday I will run up the horrendous hill. 

My parents live in the country in e. WA on the top of a hill on a gravel road.  So any running I do there will include running uphill.  I will have to run uphill in order to get back to their house.  I don't know if I'll have time on Sunday to go for a run.  I know I won't have time on Friday, I'll go to work and then race home to get Maddox and Damian and then leave immediately (it's a 5-6 hr drive, depending on how many stops I need to make).  Sunday I won't have to work, but my parents will want me to go to church with them, so I don't know.  Maybe I'll go to church and then go for a run and then leave.  My sister is going with me, so it also depends on when she wants to leave.  I may just have to take 2 days off this week. 


Anyway, back to goals . . .
  1. Run up Haggen Hill (i.e. horrendous hill) Completed Monday 4/2/12
  2. Run entire 3 miles Completed 4/10/12 
  3. Tulip Run/Walk Completed 4/7/12 1:28
  4. Run up 4 mile hill Sunday hill by ??? May 1st?  Do I think I can do that? 
  5. *Run up HH every day for a week Completed Tuesday 4/10/12
  6. *Run entire 3 miles under 30 min.
    *New goals added 4/3

I keep forgetting that I'm planning on walking in the Tulip Run this year.  I am walking because my sister is planning on going with me and she doesn't run.  I would really like to run, but I'm willing to slow down for her.  I guess I will just have to wait till next year and run then.  I have looked up other runs in this area and it doesn't seem like there are a lot.  I don't really want to travel to Seattle (at this time) to go to a "race."  Especially for my first one.  How scary! The Tulip Run is either 2 miles or 5 miles.  I'm not up to 5 miles yet, and 2 miles (now) seems so short.  So it's probably a good thing that we're just going to walk. 

In other news . . . I want this shirt!

Monday, March 26, 2012

Shoulders down, stomach in

The weekend here was beautiful!  Western Washington is so rainy and dreary, it's depressing.  I've heard that the Seattle area is one of the highest in the nation for suicides.  Doesn't surprise me, there's no sun more than half the time.  One thing about western Washintonians, they know how to enjoy the sun.  I grew up in eastern WA, and over there summers are hot and dry and there's an overabundance of sun.  When it's sunny and hot outside, everyone stays in their houses with the air conditioner cranked.  In western WA, when it's sunny and hot warm (it never really gets hot here) everyone is outside enjoying it.  You can't walk down the street without seeing at least one family outside bbq-ing, usually every other house, at least. 

Saturday and Sunday were gorgeous.  I think we were the only area in the nation that didn't have record high temperatures a few weeks ago.  Actually, while everyone else in the nation was have 70 degree weather, we got snow (which is pretty unusual here too).  So having 2 days of sun was awesome!  Saturday I didn't go for a run, just didn't have the time with Damian's wrestling tournament and then we went to see the Wizard of Oz at the community college's theater (play, not movie).  So yesterday I got to enjoy the sun with a jog run.  (I've really got to get out of the habit of saying jog, I'm a runner, not a jogger.) :-)  

I did the same 4 miles yesterday as I did last Sunday and cut off 8 min of time.  I really think last week I was so slow because of my shoes.  I got a blister and shins splints early on and had a really hard time running.  I have been wearing my old shoes (I really need to find new shoes that are the same as my old ones) and my shins splints are going away and my blister is healing.  Anyone else feel like dying in the first 10 min or so?  I feel terrible in the first mile. Yesterday I felt my best in mile 2 and mile 4.  Mile 3 is straight up, seriously, a mile of straight up.  Although I did see deer crossing the street in front of me. 
There are 3 deer in there, I didn't get my camera out fast enough to get them actually crossing the road in front of me.

Don't let all the trees fool you, this is a very urban area.  There are houses all over, this just happens to be the backyard of someone's house. 

Today I upped my daily milage to 3 miles.  I did pretty good.  Average pace of 11 min/mile.  I really need to remember to keep my shoulders down and my stomach in when I run.  I kept repeating that to myself today.  I tend to run with my shoulders around my ears, and it's not good.  Shoulders down, stomach in, shoulders down, stomach in . . . it's hard to do when you are almost home and going uphill. 

Sunday, March 25, 2012

4 weeks down!

The other day I went for the exact same run as Wed. and cut off 2 min of my time.  Reading other people's comments on running has led me to think that I need to be better at keeping the same pace, even if it feels slow.  Plus, I was looking at the Mapmyfitness route on my computer, and noticed that I am running at a 7-8.5 mile and then dying, so I slow down to a 14-16 mile walk, and then back to a 8 mile pace and then back to a 14 mile walk and so on, which equals out to about an 11+ mile run.  I noticed that I was going really fast, (8mi) so I slowed down and didn't stop.  I found I didn't even get winded.  I just kept what felt like a slow pace and just ran.  It helped that for part of it, there were some women in front of me running, so I tried to keep pace with them. I would stop at times and start to walk and realize I wasn't winded at all, so I used my self-talk and said "what are you doing Cathy, you can run, you don't need to walk" and I ran.  :-)  It felt AWESOME to get home and realize that I ran for the majority of my 2.5 miles.  I did walk up the really tortuous hill, I'll never be able to run it I will run it, just not yet. . . next week.  :-)

I am also down 1 lb.  I will have to get back in the habit of weighing myself on Friday mornings.  After my run, I was down 2lbs, but I think I will use my "official" weight.  I don't think I look skinnier, but I feel fabulous.  I feel like I should have lost at least 10 lbs.  I have to keep in mind that I will see a difference after 4 weeks, family and friends see a difference after 8 weeks and everyone else sees a difference after 16 weeks.  The other thing I think about often is that a lot of runners stop running after 4 weeks (from what I have read).  I said that to Chris and he said probably because they don't see a difference.  I had never thought of that, but it's probably true.  However, I feel a difference.  I feel fabulous.  :-)  I've now been running everyday, with a break here and there, for 4 weeks.  :-)  So I just need to stay motivated and keep at it.

Today I plan to go to do a pedicure with D.  He's kinda funny about it, he doesn't want Chris to know, because Chris would make fun of him, but it's nice to get a feet massage, and D really likes the massaging chair.  :-) 

The weather is gorgeous today, so my run should be very pleasant.  I'm looking forward to it.  I was reading a blog where the lady talked about her toenail falling off so that means she's offically a runner.  I don't want my toenails to fall off.  I don't want to be a runner if it means my toenails are going to fall off.  :-( I like my pedicures. 

My new running shoes suck!  I can't believe I spent money on them and now have to get new ones.  I got a blister on the back of my foot last Sunday and Friday I couldn't even walk around the house getting ready for my run in them.  So I put my old shoes back on, and they were soooooo comfortable.  I can't believe the difference.  So I'm stuck wearing my old (but comfy) shoes until I can afford to get another new pair.  Hopefully my shins don't get all crazy on me.  Although, my new shoes gave me shin splints as well as blisters and I noticed how heavy they were.  I guess I'll have to see if I can find a pair of my old ones, just new.

I'm going to my parents house next weekend and I don't want to get out of the habit of running, so I have to figure out how to do it there.  Usually when I quit running it's right after going to visit my parents.  I stop for those few days and then when I come back I'm out of the habit and don't want to go so I don't start up again.  Hopefully that doesn't happen this time.

Yesterday was D's wrestling tournament in Anacortes. It was tortuous.  Picture 8 medium sized middle school wrestling teams in one smallish high school gym with parents, siblings and other assorted relatives/friends. Now picture me, alone with a 9 month old baby who likes to crawl around and be very, very active.  Yeah it was extremely unfun.  Not to mention that I left my purse at home accidentally so didn't have my Kindle, or my wallet (and I drove 45 min without my driver's license).  I could go on and on about how terrible it was, but I just leave it at I hate wrestling. It's boring and it's violent and as soon as your kid wrestles you either have to wait an hour + for him to wrestle again,  or (in a regular match) he's done and you've taken 2 hours out of your day (yesterday was 6 hours) to watch him wrestle for (sometimes) less than a min.   If it was me, I'd give up as soon and they had me almost pinned. :-) Good thing I'm not a wrestler.

 Originally I was sitting smack dab in the center of that mess of people.  It was crowded, loud and just crazy.  I finally moved to a smaller, older set of bleachers that was up some stairs.  It was much nicer.  Maddox liked to copy the sound of the whistle the refs blew, it was very annoying.

Because I didn't eat anything for 6 hours (no wallet) I got home and gorged myself on a burger and fries, then D got home and gave me a donut, and I had a milk shake.  Wow, that really screwed up my digestive tract.  It was very, very unpleasant.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Am I a runner?

Heading to D's wrestling tourney this morning.  It's a beautiful sunny day.  Here's another entry from my journal.  I know, lame, but oh well.  This one is from March 21 and 22

I am fabulous!  I did not have a cupcake in the break room at work.  I love cupcakes.  I love donuts, I love cake, i love cinnamon rolls (which I have at home and DID NOT eat).  I ate a banana, and am now chewing gum.  I rock.  :-)  I sat at the staff meeting and didn't touch the brownie bites that were in front of me for most of the meeting.  I have a major issue with baked goods, and those brownie bites . . . they are YUM!  I usually have enough for 2 regular brownies. 

So I found something out about myself yesterday.  Even though I have only been running for 3+ weeks, I am slightly obsessed with it, and really, really need to go run almost everyday.  I didn't run on the 20th, and I knew I needed to yesterday.  I was thinking about it all day.  I woke up to snow, but by lunch time it was sunny and beautiful.  With W. WA weather though, it may not last (snow, sun, rain, clouds often in an hour).  So after work I had to go get D and take him to baseball, however he forgot about baseball and decided to go to gymnastics instead.  When I was plannign to take him to baseball, I decided I was going to run on a trail I've never been on close to where he practices, so when he decided to go to gymnastics instead, I was a annoyed because I didn't know where I was going to run, plus, gymnastics is 15+ min away and baseball is 5 min away.  Chris had been home all day and wanted a break from Maddox, but I REALLY wanted my run.  Get home from dropping D off and while screaming at Chris, I'm thinking this is crazy! I'm never going to get my run in, so I just left.  And oh my word!  I had the best run ever!  I went 2.5 miles in 29 min (which isn't a fab time, but that's not what mattesr right now for me).  I ran most of the way, I did stop and walk up the huge hill and then again to just catch my breath on the trail, and again going downhill because i get terrible shin splints when I run downhill.  But I got home, and felt soooo good.  I was on cloud 9!  I apologized to Chris, finished rolling the pizza dough out and just in general had a muich better night.  I did not realize how badly not running affected my mood.

Although it also might have been from being hungry.  I have been STARVING. I have been trying to stay within 1500-1900 calories, and it's HARD!  At lunch time I realized I only had 500-900 calories left in the day so I didn't want to eat anything else because I still had dinner to eat, and hopefully some sort of snack.  Then we had homemade pizza and putting the recipe into Sparkpeople (I screwed up on the serving size) I realized that 2 pieces of the pizza still gave me a few calories left over at the end of the day, even though I had 2 girl scout cookies earlier.  So yay me! 

I guess all this just means that yesterday was a really good day.  And today . . . I feel fabulous.  I had to drive to Sedro Woolley for work and it was beautiful outside.  All I could think about is what a great day to go running.  Does this make me a runner?  I obsess about it.  I hope it stays beautiful.  I really can't wait to get off work to go running.  :-)
So I'm thinking of starting a blog.  This already sorta sounds like one, probably because I've been reading Runs for Cookies so much.  I find myself narrating my life in my head.  I want to put some sort of status on FB, but really, my narratives are too long and silly to go on FB.  So maybe a blog would be a good thing.  Probably no one would read it, but it would get it out of my head.  :-)  I started this this morning first thing at work and it helped my drive to Sedro Woolley, I didn't have it stuck in my head narrating away.  I've already thought of a couple names . . . Just Living the Dream (a Convoluted and Crazy Dream) or Narrations of a Normal Life (Normal being relative) . . . or something like that.  I'm leaning toward Narrations of a Normal Life, although for some reason I really like the Just Living the Dream because that's always what Chris says. 

 I read something recently that said if you're going to start a blog, you want it to be original and something people would want to read.  Who would WANT to read anything that goes on in my head? I don't really want it to be a 'weight loss" blog, and no way in the world would I make it as a "crafty" blog or "cooking" blog.  So it would be really, really boring probably.  I am pretty crazy in my life now, so maybe someone would be interested in looking at it.  Although, when I was browsing through blogs yesterday I was looking for something that caught my eye right away and really didn't find anything. Maybe I'll look at others and see what they have to offer.  What catches my eye and makes me want to read them.

This new thing

I did it, I took the plunge . . . I started a blog.  I thought about it a few years ago and didn't know how.  Then I stumbled onto this and here I am . . . Well, hopefully someone reads it.  :-)  Otherwise I'm just talking to myself. 

I started running a little over 4 weeks ago.  However, I have run in the past.  Starting in 6th grade where my PE teacher started training us for the end of the school run to the cemetery, which was up an extremely steep hill.  He got me into the town's Centennial Run, where I took first place for my age.  Then I did a Fun Run in the town next to us.  Fast forward 23 years and here I am, out of shape and trying to figure out this new world of running.

I have a 13 year old son and a 9 month old son.  My 13 yr old is extremely active in sports, baseball, wrestling and gymnastics currently, but he also plays soccer and basketball.

I'm thinking of posting my most recent journal entries.  Just because I started chronically my runs and such and I'd like to have them on here.  So I'll start with my first one, which was from March 18, last Sunday.  :-) Maybe it's lame a great idea. 

Went for a 4 mile run walk today.  Would have liked to have called it a run, but I think I walked more than I ran.  :-(  Took me 52 min, my 2 mile runs are about 22 min, so I added time . . . but like I said  I walked most of this "run."  In my defense there was a really long uphill part, all the way to Haggen and going down hill (which I'm not used to) really killed my shins, so even walking killed me for most of it.  Maybe next Sunday (I want to do this at least once a week) I'll walk down the hill and then run on the flatter parts. 
This week marks 3 full weeks of running.  So I haven't seen much difference, and I still feel like crap while running.  I hope it gets better soon.  I read that most people quit around week 4 and you don't see a difference until week 4, others don't see a difference until week 8 and acquaintances see a difference at week 12.  *sigh*

So I found this great website, Runs for Cookies and I spent most of the morning on it.  I want to lose weight, but I don't want to eat differently.  If I could just exercise a lot and lose weight, I'd be
happy, but that doesn't seem to work.  Like I said, I've been running for 3 weeks and haven't lost anything.  *sigh, means I'll have to change my eating.  Maybe.