In January I decided that I wasn't going to talk about my weight anymore. I am not super overweight, and really, I don't think anyone cares to hear about how much I obsess about it. I have been very good at not talking about it on here, and I think I've even started to obsess less about it. I note my weight and hate it, and move on. I wish I could go back to the size 6 jeans that are in my closet, but right now I should be happy with the size 8 jeans I am wearing.
So that being said, I've been thinking about why I decided to train for another marathon. There are two reasons. The first one is simple and the one I tell everyone, I missed my long runs last summer. I romanticized them in my head all last summer. The road I ran on while training in 2015 runs right along the freeway, and so going to and from work, especially to work because it's so nice in the morning, I would think about how much I missed those runs. I hated that I sprained my ankle last year and I hated that I wasn't running any more than 3 miles. I guess as part of reason one is also that I do better with consistency when I have a goal race, and a marathon in Oct is perfect for summer running.
The second reason I decided to train for another marathon is more of a secret desire. In 2015 when I was training I felt and looked my best. I got to the closest I have been in close to 25 years to my (secret) goal weight of around 135, and got to the weight I tell everyone is my goal (140). I guess I've been telling myself that if I train for another marathon, I will start losing weight again, and maybe I can get back down to 145, which is where I was happy, even though I still wanted to lose weight.
When I started marathon training, or maybe when I started talking about it, Chris has started reminding me of all the bad runs I had, he even mentioned the run (or runs) I cried after. I didn't have the best long runs. In fact, I hated most of them. And it's true that I dread my long runs, every week. I dreaded having to run 13 miles yesterday, and already I'm dreading the 14 miles scheduled for this next Sunday. So I'm not sure if I really want to run another marathon. What's the point of running more than one? I ran the first to say that I did it, why do I want to run the second other than missing runs that I actually hated, and wanting to lose weight I'm not sure I'll be able to?
40 is tough. 5 years ago when I started running I wished I had attempted to lose weight in my 20's, I bet it would have been easier and it would have fallen off faster. Now I'm wishing it was 5 years ago again. My weight lose journey has been slow, and frustrating. And again, I'm only talking about the 30 lbs I wanted and have lost, not some astronomical number that blows people away. But at least I felt like I was going somewhere 5 years ago, not this frustratingly stubborn 10lbs that won't get off my body.
Anyway, I will stop whining about it.
This year the marathon training plan I'm using is Hal Higdon's intermediate 2 plan, vs the one in 2015 that was Hal Higdon's beginner 1 or 2 (can't remember) plan. It started me at 10 miles for my long run and it incorporates race pace runs. I have never done a race pace run before, so I was pretty skeptical about it when I attempted it with my first 5 miles. If I want to run under a 4 hour marathon, I have to run 9:09 min/miles, that seems impossible for 26.2 miles. So that means that my race pace run needs to be at an average of 9:09 min/miles.
The training plan says that the run before the long run should be race pace, and the long run should be 30-90 seconds per mile slower. I have actually been surprised with this. I decided anything under 9:10 would be good for me for race pace, and my long runs no more than 60 seconds slower. I've done 3 race pace runs, one 5 mile, and two 6 mile ones. All of them have been under 9 min/miles. 5 miles was 8.39 and both 6 mile runs were 8.49.
I've been even more surprised by my long run times. My first long run time was 10:04 min/mile for 10 miles, but all of them since have been under 10 min/miles. In fact, yesterday's 13 miles was an average of 9.35 min/mile. Looking at that on my calendar makes me happy.
Seriously, after my run yesterday, my feet hurt so bad. And my legs hurt. And I have a hip problem that I don't know what to do about. I've been stretching (not as consistently as I should) and I started foam rolling. I guess I will see how that works for the next week and reevaluate if it doesn't start getting better.