The second week, Chris came home, no more work. That Monday was the worst day for work, I had all 4 of my family members in the same room where I was supposed to be working. The TV was on, Asher was bouncing away in his bouncer toy, Maddox was distracted. I was so frustrated. However, the next day Damian went back to work, Asher went to his Mom's, and the house was quite a bit quieter. Chris found a couple projects, so I was able to work and help Maddox with school.
The third week was similar to the second week (although Damian didn't have Asher on Monday, but he got him back on Tuesday and Chris was babysitting). Then Damian was "furloughed" on Thursday. I decided I needed my own work space. I am supposed to be working, I am the only one in the family that still has a job so I cannot be responsible for Maddox getting his school work done as well. So I started working a garage office, but I was overwhelmed, and am getting a bit depressed, so I stopped, I went and laid down for awhile. (Yes, I was supposed to be working.) Chris and Damian finished my garage office, and it's very nice. I was able to go in there for the second half of the day, but I was pretty lazy work-wise.
Are there others out there struggling with working at home? Are you getting actual work done? I feel pressured to work, but it's so hard, and I'm rather jealous of those that are not having to work during this time. I have visions of doing stuff in my house, or craft projects with Maddox, or planting flowers outside. I don't want to work while my whole family is not. On the other hand, I'm bored. I haven't seen my sister for 3 weeks. My dad was supposed to come over here in March. I wanted to go see him at some point too. And I can't. . . . I have low level anxiety at all times, worried about my family (especially my dad) and so angry at the people that won't stay home, or at least won't stay away from others. I'm going on 4 weeks of being at home, and it will only last longer if these other idiots won't stay home. I'm depressed. It started on Friday.
The weather is supposed to get nicer this week, which will really help. The first week of staying home, the weather was super sunny and nice. And now we've had 2 weeks of rain and cloudiness. Although, sun will make me want to be outside, and I really won't get work done.
I'm also drinking more, and eating more. At the end of February I was starting to lose weight again, and the beginning of March looked promising. But as of the 1st of April, it's all gone, I'm up and I'm frustrated. I'm the one doing the grocery shopping, and yet I continue to bring home snacky foods "for my family" but guess who's eating them? I log most of it, but I'm snacking so much that I forget what I ate. If I'm stuck in my house another month (and Washington did extend it's stay at home order to May 4th, so I am), I'm going to be huge. I'm going to lose all the work I have done in the last 8 years. I'll lose it in 2 months . . .
Don't get me wrong, I'm still running, but obviously that is not enough. I am on day 522.
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I work at home all the time so my team is expected to be just as productive as before and I agree, seeing people on admin leave or making more money per week on unemployment doing fun things is frustrating (I do sympathize with those who struggle and know I am privileged). What has changed is that my husband now works at home, in a house with no doors. If we both have video conferences it doesn't work too well. And his typing is loud. I do miss the gym but have managed to get in workouts. Hang in there.
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