Obsessions

Well, I did not do that great this week with my diet.  I did not gain anything, but I only lost .2 lbs.  I was hoping for another (at least) pound or two (or five).  I suppose I need to be happy.  I am in the 140's (high 140's) for the first time since June 2016.  I've had 3 weigh ins now in the 140's, the first one I was 148.8, then 149.8, and today 149.6.  That is officially 7.4 lbs since January 1st, so that is pretty good.  Not as good as I was hoping, but still better than expected.  My "I'm okay with this weight, but am not as small as I'd like to be, but that's okay" weight is 145 and I was really hoping to get there.  Nope, not going to happen in 3 days.  I'm sure if I had stuck with being super good on the weekend I would have gotten there.  I'm also sure that if I had actually started (for real) trying back in September/October when I realized I was going to Hawaii I could have made it.  Oh well, no use crying over spilled milk.

The silly thing about all this weight loss obsession is that I'm going to Hawaii, and while I will likely continue to track (I always track) I won't be very disciplined and will likely gain most of the weight back.  But now that I know what will work for me this time around, I can go back to it when I get home.

What else is going on?  Not a lot.  Yesterday was a crappy day at work, 2 clients had really, really bad days.  My clients have mental health issues, so having to deal with the things they had to yesterday (and continue to have to deal with) makes it that much worse.  I am looking forward to the weekend, and my vacation, but now I'm also very worried about my clients since I will be gone for 10 days,  I hope to come back to better, not worse (which is possible).

Running . . . running hasn't been that exciting.  3 miles during the week, 4-5 miles on Saturdays (on the treadmill) and 5-8 (closer to 4-7) miles on Sunday.  Oh, I am officially signed up for Ragnar 2019 (well, a team I have agreed to be on is).

I am wondering if I want to continue my run streak.  Today will be day 114, but next Tuesday (day 118) I have to leave my house at 4:30am to get on a shuttle to go to the airport to catch an 8:40am flight.  We get to Kauai at 4pm, which would give me time to go run, but am I going to want to?  Or should I get up extra early (3am??) to run a mile on the treadmill (that sounds awful).  Or should I just give up the runstreak?  I never intended to go past January 1st, but it really is rather easy, and the higher the days go, the harder it is to stop.

from 2 days ago

I'm happy I didn't start losing weight until I was already 2 months into the streak, otherwise I would continue solely because I believe that is what is helping me to lose.  But it's not.  It really is calories in vs. calories burned.  I don't think I ever actually believed that before, I mean, yes, I sorta believed it, but when I got down to 140 in 2015 I was training for a marathon, and I just thought that I got to that weight because of all the running I was doing.  Which is true, but I also really, really didn't want to gain weight and I had heard that many people gain when marathon training.  Back then I wasn't meticulous about tracking my food.  I logged on every day, but I didn't track every bite and rarely tracked alcohol.  For the last 2 years or so, I've been much better at tracking everything, every bite and every drink, and for the last 2 months I've been meticulous.