Small wins?

 Years ago, when I first lost weight I had so many ups and downs I would get so discouraged. Back then I was weighing daily and writing it on my mirror. I started weighing everyday again this year.  I had stopped, only doing weekly for awhile and then when I wasn't doing well, not at all.  But I discovered that recording my daily weight really helps.  It is frustrating though when my lowest weight of the week is not on my official weigh in day.  Today (Friday) it was the lowest it's been in a year or so at 163.8, but my official weigh in was 167.

If we count my annual holiday weight gain, I've lost 8 lbs since the beginning of the year, and if we go on today's weight, 11 lbs.  It feels good to be seeing lower numbers, but I hate posting about it.  How many times have I posted "I've lost weight!" only to come back in a month and be where I started.  But this feels good right now.  I've consistently been seeing the numbers on average go down.  I do have days that are higher, usually Monday because I'm not as careful on the weekend, but even the high number is lower.  

I've been taking monthly measurements, and those aren't so great, but I am feeling better.  I think in my last post I mentioned I am no longer doing intermittent fasting, it wasn't helping and doesn't really fit my day. My sister found a supplement called Bioma that is a fancy probiotic.  It has really good reviews, so I started taking that.  I have a few others that I am taking, ashwaganda is supposed to help with metabolism, and the Bioma helps with the gut health.  I am also drinking Metamucil every day, I don't know if it helps with weight loss, but it helps with being regular, and I know I don't eat enough fiber.  I've also started drinking a green drink, it's a powder called "Clean Simple Greens" or something, but I feel it helps with the veggie intake since I'm bad at that too.  The green drink is actually good, it does have a little bit of a powdery taste/texture if not shaken well enough, but it doesn't turn me off.  

I am not running, I am pretty lucky if I get one run in a week. The 10k training plan didn't work at all.  I don't know what my problem is. I see memories that pop up on my phone of me running, and I want to run again, I know I enjoy it.  I just don't do it.  I think some of it is discouragement from running 2 miles and feeling like I'm dying.  I used to be proud to be 10k ready all the time, so it's hard to feel like I've let it slide.  2024 was supposed to be the year I got my mojo back, but I haven't.  I am walking most work days, I take a 30 min walk at lunch almost every day.  

I truly believe the lack of motivation is part of this crappy premenopausal journey I am on. Right now the high protein and the supplements seem to be working to help with weight loss.  

My picture from my one run this week.