Last week

 Last week the numbers were amazing.  I was down 9 lbs since Jan. 1st.  I decided to go all out on the junk food on Superbowl weekend, but I've been amazingly good this week.  My weight on Tuesday (weigh in day) was back up to 170, and hasn't gone down.  I'm worried that I'm going to end February at the same weight that I started February.  

Honestly, I'm still on track, sort of.  This week I was supposed to be 170.14, but I was at 170.2 (is it really that big of a deal???).  Last week I was 169 for my official weigh in.  It's so stupid, I am down overall, one high week is not the end all.  Afterall, in January I went up, and was high for a week while on antibiotics, and the next week was down 2 lbs.  

I am now questioning if it was the antibiotics, or actually my period week.  I don't actually have a period right now because of the birth control I take (and probably menopause stuff), but your body still goes through the cycle (I think).  I mean the bloating and such, not the actual cycle.  Maybe that's what's going on, after all, it's 4 weeks since my last "too high" weight.  

Last week I was good with my food (until the weekend) but did no running.  My only running days were Sunday and Saturday.  5 miles, that's it.  It's hard because once upon a time I was running 20 miles (or more) a week.  Maybe that is also a factor.

I am ready for the weekend.

Last week was a hard, like really hard, week.  My first employee, (the first one hired under me) was fired, and it wasn't my decision, in fact, I had no say at all, and I disagreed with the decision.  There were a few other things that were said to me that made me feel that my professional goals, specifically the most important one of hours to get my counseling license, were not respected and were actually being actively denied.  Sooooo, I applied for a job at my internship that I ended 2 years ago.  I have an interview tomorrow, and was basically told by my old supervisor that I had the job if I interviewed (I talked to him before I applied).

Well, this week, I've had talks with my supervisor and CEO and I feel a lot better about my current job.  But, what should have taken me 2 years to get . . . I'm on my 3rd year now.  Do I trust that they will follow through this time, or do I move on?  There are a lot of negatives to leaving my current job, but do allllll the negatives outweigh getting my license?  I'm really, really conflicted.  My sister says leave, but I'm still conflicted. 

Today I had a counseling appointment, and came away thinking, I really enjoyed that, if I had more of that, I would stay without question.