Writing an accountability post on Friday is terrible. I don't always have time, plus it seems ridiculous that I'm the same weight. Last week I did really, really well and my weight still ended up being 156. I was so excited on Wednesday when I saw 155 but by Friday it had gone up again. So what is the point of these posts?
I thought that writing about it weekly would make me better. And I have been better, but I don't think it's because I'm writing about it. I am back to weighing in every day and writing it down. I did that 7 years ago when I got down to my goal weight, and it kept me on track. I only quit because even though I was at a good weight, I still obsessed about it so I quit.
I suppose that I could say that it is succeeding because I've lost 1lb since the beginning of March, really since my last weigh-in in March was 157.4, that means that I've lost less than a pound since the end of March.
I am still eating and drinking too much on the weekends. I cut way back on my alcohol, even on the weekend, but don't do very good with food on weekends. I really think that is my problem, the weekend. I do very good throughout the week (she says as she eats a handful of jelly beans . . . seriously, jelly beans are delicious!).
I get really frustrated. I am obviously doing something wrong. When I lost weight previously I was 36-39. I really do feel like it is an age thing. It is true that as you age, it gets harder and harder. It makes me wish I had been this dedicated in my 20s and early 30s. I was never big, but I was 180 and at 5'4" that is too big for me. This week (two days so far) I have not been as good as I have been for the last 2 weeks, probably because I'm frustrated with my lack of loss. I need to quit being frustrated and realize that it's my fault. I'm obviously not doing as great as I think I am.
I do feel guilty for complaining about my weight, my current weight is some people's goal weight, and that is okay. I want them to succeed, but I have to tell myself this is my story and I am the one writing it.
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Never feel guilty for talking about wanting to lose weight......we are each at our own places in our lives...and we each have very unique bodies and stories that go with the bodies. You know what you want and need for your body. Never feel guity!
ReplyDeleteYes yes yes.....losing weight as I get older is sheer murder!!!!
Weekends are my crash & burn days. I understand your frustration. When there isn't loss, it is difficult not to give up. I know I need to do better. It definitely is harder to lose weight the older we get. You're doing great with your running streak. Keep it up.
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