This week I was supposed to be at the Grand Canyon with my dad and sister. It was my dad's graduation gift to me. As you know, we didn't go. Well, I assume you know, since my Dad is no longer here. Instead I went to my parent's house with my sister and her husband because we had a meeting with his attorney and accountant. We stayed for the week so she could go through paperwork, and I am working remotely (which I do at home anyway).
Honestly, even though it was a hard week, it was also sorta what I needed. Yes, I still have to get up and do some work, but I do not have to worry about my family. I have a bed to myself and just don't have to think about my son. I think I do a lot of worrying about him and while I've been here I haven't had that burden. I also do a lot of mediating between him and my husband, and again, while here, I haven't had that.
This morning I woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep because my room was too hot. My sister gets up at 5 because she starts work at 6 and she turns on the heater. She already likes it much warmer than I do, and then for her to turn it up to 72 (yikes!) at 5am was too much for me today. I ended up grabbing some icepacks from the freezer, I put two on my feet and one in the pillow I hug, and fell back asleep. It was sooooo nice to sleep until after 7:30. At home I would have had to get up and get Maddox going for school, but here, I don't have to do that.
My sister is coming back here in a few weeks and asked if I wanted to come, and while the answer for me is a resounding Yes! I don't think my family will appreciate it. Even though I didn't go to the Grand Canyon, and even though I had to work, this week has been exactly what I needed that I didn't realize I needed. I do have to go back today because tomorrow I have a work training. I'm not excited about that at all, but I have to go.
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October was supposed to be my running month. I had ramped up my long runs, doing 8, 9, and 10 miles. I was doing some speed work, hill repeats every week, and I was excited to get to 100 miles this month. Well, then my Dad died and I've been in eastern Washington 4 times this month so my mileage plummeted. So instead of getting close to 100 miles, I'm currently at 64 miles for the month with 4 runs left. I doubt I'll even get to 80 miles.
November 1 is my 3 year run streak anniversary. My first anniversary I ran 3.65 miles and spelled out E65 (Lol!! I meant to spell out 365). Last year, my 2 year anniversary, my ankle was really bothering me so I only ran 2 miles to celebrate. This year I don't know what I'm going to do. It seems like a big deal to me, but it is only to me, no one else cares. If I had continued with my long runs, I would plan to run 10.96 miles (1096 days for 3 years, including a leap year), but my 10 mile run was at the beginning of the month (the day before my dad died) and I've been mostly running 1 and 3 miles since then. And I just don't know if I have the motivation and desire.
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