I miss her

I was doing so well at posting regularly, and then . . . life. 

My biggest problem is that I lead a very boring life.  I do nothing super interesting and I spend my time at work, doing school work, and running (oh, don't forget the wine).  I'm super tired of my job, but I keep it because I have a lot of freedom and am able to do some schoolwork while at work, which makes my evenings nicer. 

This weekend my family is going to Battle Ground, WA (there's nothing there, but that's where my Dad found a house).  We have been doing a trip for many, many years on President's Day weekend.  We didn't do it last year because we decided to go camping in the summer (and then we ended up on a cruise), and we didn't do it in 2018 because we did go camping (although my Mom was in the hospital during this particular weekend, so we wouldn't have been able to go anyway).  Anyway, that means that this weekend is the first time we have not done this type of trip without my Mom, which I am finding very difficult to think about. 

I thought I was done with firsts without her, but apparently not. I miss her.  Ive shared all these pictures before, but these are all within the last year of her life.  You would not expect that less than a year later she'd be gone.

 She couldn't stand on the paddle board because her balance was so off, but she really wanted to do it.

 The insane inflatable "race" we did.

This was our last trip with my Mom