Last minute nerves

I am currently laying in a tub contemplating the half marathon i am doing in the morning, 13 hours away. The description of it says mostly flat with some "fun hills" to keep it interesting. If you know anything about race descriptions, that tends to mean a hilly race. I don't think it's as hilly as the San Juan half was, but I'm expecting hills.

And I haven't been training on hills, not like I did for the San Juan half.  So, my thing with my knee has meant that I plan to walk downhill but I've always had a pride about the uphills. In fact, when I was running the San Juan half my mantra on the uphill was "races are won on the uphill" and I ran up every single hill on that course. And since then my mantra on uphills has been "if I ran San Juan, I can run this hill."

So tonight I'm laying in my bath thinking I may have to walk uphill too. And I get embarrassed. The people on the course won't know I've been struggling with my knee. They won't know that I'm not properly trained (for the second distance race in a row). But it's so silly to think that way. Everyone is there for their own reasons and have their own abilities. There may be a couple (I've been one) that feel superior because they ran up the hill, but that's their issue, not mine.

 My sister let me borrow her knee brace for tomorrow. I've never used one before, so I hope it helps. =) I also need to remember to take some ibuprofen before I go.

I woke up last night with a rash on my neck. It itched so bad at about 3am I had to get up and put cortisone on it. This morning it was a little better but it's still not gone. I hope it doesn't get worse between now and the morning.

Anyway, I won't be posting tomorrow, so I hope everyone has a great New Year's. Stay safe! And thank you for reading my ramblings this year. I'm sure next year won't be any better writing, but I'm also sure I'll continue to write and run.