However, I did read something that gave me (a little) inspiration. Katie's blog, which I have followed faithfully for 3 years, and is probably one of my top 3 favorites. She wrote this post yesterday, and I understand what she means. She has been running longer than I have, and she just recently had a stress fracture in her ankle that has stopped her from running for the last 5 weeks.
Getting back into running after stopping in October and November has been much slower than I anticipated. Granted, I am keeping it light on purpose because the last time I increased my mileage by a few miles my feet bothered me again. And I find it much, much easier to put off a run.
For example, I was going to run yesterday. I am going out of town this weekend and in order to avoid running 2 days in a row, I decided I needed to run Wednesday and Friday, and then most likely take the weekend off, because, let's face it, I never run when I go on vacation, even if I plan to. However, even though I was home earlier than normal yesterday I decided to not run and just do it today. Which means that I will need to run tomorrow as well to get as many miles as I'd like to have, which is 2 days in a row, which is what I was trying to avoid.
I don't plan my runs for the week, well, I do, but they are loosely planned and at least once a week I switch them around. (Just like on Sunday, I didn't run on Sunday, which meant I had to run on Monday, which is why I was going to run yesterday, so I could run on Friday . . .) Do you see how changing just one day is a downhill spiral for me?
I have been sitting here all day thinking that maybe I wouldn't run today anyway and just save it for tomorrow and then PROMISE myself I'd run on Sunday. But no, that PROMISE is never kept for me. Vacations are fun and I tend to just let it slide.
I have started worrying that I will never get back to the dedication that I was just 6 months ago. 100 miles in a month? Yeah right! Maybe a marathon ISN'T a goal. I can't believe I ever ran 5 miles 4 days a week with a long run of 7+ miles on the weekend. I'll never get back to that. Do I want to get back to that? Those are the thoughts that run through my head lately, and I'm unhappy with them. I LOVE running. I LOVE that feeling of a new distance. 10 miles? Fantastic! 13.1 miles? Incredible!!
So how do I go back to that? I don't know. I'm sick of my feet hurting. Other than completely stopping again (which I never want to do) I don't know how to make it heal any faster. Yes, they are soooo much better than they were. Today I haven't had one bit of pain. But yesterday I did. I do my exercises way more frequently than I ever have. I am working on strengthening (and stretching) my hips. But it just seems to drag on.
Some day I will look back at this and think, wow! I forgot how much my feet hurt. But that hasn't happened yet.
I double dog PROMISE that I WILL run a marathon someday. (I hope it's this year, but if not, it will be next year or the year after.)
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