Well, I got to work today and remembered I was supposed to meet a client at Denny's. I was super uncomfortable going to Denny's and not ordering anything (I thought about coffee, but restaurant coffee is disgusting) so I looked up their omelets. They had a veggie omelet that looked good, so I got it. I asked for half an omelet because I really wasn't hungry, and the lady let me get a senior omelet, without the sides (I payed for the sides though, sadly). Anyway, I ate half the senior omelet and was just so full I couldn't think of eating more. (It was a really good omelet, although it had a lot of cheese.)
I decided I would just skip lunch today. I have a hard boiled egg in my lunch bag just in case I get hungry after lunch and I decided that would be fine. However, at about noon I realized that it was lunch time. I was not hungry. I was worrying that I would get hungry later. So I went to the break room and there were cupcakes there to celebrate someone's birthday, and I ate one. I didn't even like it, it had some weird cherry filling and was kinda gross, but I ate it. All because I was "scared" to get hungry. How silly is that? I am not usually so stupid. I am okay with letting myself get hungry, in fact, I'm always proud of it because it means I didn't overeat. But today I was afraid I'd be hungry and because it was lunch time, I ate. So stupid. I don't know the exact calories in that damn cupcake, but I'd say at least 200, I put it into myfitnesspal and randomly choose one that popped up in the search results, I think the one I chose was around 215 calories, all because I was scared. So incredibly stupid.
I have started standing at work. Especially when I'm not doing anything work related. When I get home in the evening lately I can't stand the thought of sitting down, so I tend to pace the house. I am sick of sitting at least 10 hours a day. The problem with this is that my desk is not meant to be a standing desk, so I have it jerry-rigged so I can stand and be on it. =)
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Speaking of cupcakes ; ) . . . I was talking to a coworker yesterday who has only been here 3 months longer than me. I mentioned that I have never been at a job where they gave you so much food. I counted it out and I have had at least 5 lunches catered for me since I started working here. I've only been here 2 months. I don't think my last job had that many in the 4 1/2 years I worked there (okay, I take that back, we used to get breakfasts, but those were drug companies that were peddling their drugs to the psychologists). Oh, and those 5 lunches are not counting the donuts or cupcakes that people have brought in. I am usually pretty good at saying no to the really bad stuff, (donuts are another story) but not today apparently.
An update on my fluctuating weight. Yesterday I was at 149, the highest I've been in awhile . . . and I completely blame my food choices on Sunday and my period, but mostly my food choices. Well, today I was down to 148.6. Okay, so if you really think about it, 148.6 is only 0.4 less than 149, but it's nice to see