Have I ever told you that I love the fall? I love the crisp morning air. I love the leaves. I love sweaters. I love slippers. I love waking up before everyone else and having a cup of coffee while reading my book (or like this morning, the blogs I am once again behind on)(I guess I love that all year round). I love the coolness in the afternoon that makes running so fantastic. I love running on trails where the leaves have fallen and hearing the crunch under foot. I LOVE running in the fall. . . Oh wait . . . I'm not running right now.
This morning I even got dressed in my favorite oversized sweater just so I could sit in it . . . and then realized I had shrunk it the last week when I washed it. It's been several months since I last washed it and I forgot that it is strictly hang dry. So now my oversized comfy sweater fits, and isn't oversized or as comfy. =( I'm very bummed.
I am in the middle of week 4 of Insanity. I feel like they are good workouts. I literally drip sweat during and after my workouts. But I just don't feel the same in my body as I do when I run. I don't feel as lean, or as strong. In reality, I'm probably stronger since I'm working my entire body and not just the specific muscles that help me run, but I don't feel stronger. And I definitely feel bigger.
Probably because I am bigger. Since losing my job I've gained 5lbs. I'm not happy about it. It's amazing because the last time I was 150, I was so proud and happy and thought that if I didn't lose anymore weight I'd be okay because I look fine. Then I went down to 145 (even 143 for a short time) and now, being back up to 150, I feel fat. I feel gross. My jeans are tight and I no longer need a belt. I can see the difference.
One last thing. We are moving. We don't know where (staying in the same town) but we have to leave our house. It's a long story, but we have to move. Like now. So I will be spending the next week packing, and looking for somewhere to live.
Oh and I still don't have a job.