|Just because Maddox is so darn cute when he's sleeping.|
|This was taken today and really doesn't look very bad, but it|
sure does hurt a lot now.
Anyway, I know my blog is not about church, but this has been pretty heavy on my mind this weekend, so I think it will help to write it down. =)
I grew up in the Nazarene church, I even went to a Nazarene college (Northwest Nazarene University in Nampa, Idaho), I've never really been to any other church. I believe there are lots of good churches and denominations, I just have always stuck with the familiar. Anyway, I loved the pastor at the Nazarene church here in Mt. Vernon, but she left about a year and a half ago and I really haven't felt the connection with the church since she left. I realize that pastors are not what makes a church, but they do set the tone of the church. . . Anyway, the new pastor is very nice, but I find him rather dry. Plus, my church is very small and has no youth group at all. Damian is 14 and I really, really want him to be active in a good youth group.
Well, some friends of ours told me about their church and said that it has a really great youth group. I decided to check it out and see if both D and I liked it. Unfortunately, D slept in and didn't go to youth group so he ended up just going to the service with me. It was a very big church. And my friends were right, the youth program looks amazing. The pastor's sermon was nice, but nothing that really caught my attention. Nothing really stood out as wonderful and that I should go there. In fact, I felt like I was cheating on my church. I am not a big fan of big churches, I feel you get lost in them. You can go to a big church for years and years and still not know anyone and no one knows you.
When I first started going to the Nazarene church in Mt. Vernon I went very, very sporadically, but the greeter at the door remembered my name, even after not going for a couple months and a hair color change. I was extremely impressed with that. I started going regularly and even joined the church. Damian got baptized there, and Maddox got dedicated there. And then the pastor left and I felt churchless. I have not been going hardly at all since she left a year and a half ago. In fact, I think I could count on one hand the number of times I've been. It seems every time I go there are less and less young people there. And the last time I went there were no more teens and no one my age at all.
Well, I've really felt a pull to find a church. D has gone to youth group functions with one of his friends and really likes it, so I have thought about going to that church, but it is really big and I haven't gone. Then our friends invited us to their church so I thought I'd try it out. It's easier to go to a new place if you know someone. But again, I just didn't feel that it was "right." So I really don't know what to do. I really want D to have a good time in a youth group (my youth group in high school was a lot of fun, and I went to a small church). I just wish the Nazarene church had a good youth pastor that would build up the youth group.
Any and all ideas on this topic would be very helpful for me. Thanks!
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